My Work Station

I'm kind of bz these days... but apparently, I just dun hv the mood to work now.
So, I played with my phone, and transferred images to my pc... hence... show casing my work station below. haha

What a nice gold plated name display. It somehow looks kind of BIG in the office.


My well-furnished room, with super good privacy, can close sliding door also. It's of cos the place where my patients weeped, scream, scold...

Called to do it... JUST DO IT

Lord, teach me to do what I'm called to do with a willing and cheerful heart.

Considerations

Alrighty...

Check: Has everything sinked in? Yes
Emotionally stable? Yes
Rationale? Yes

Great. Good time to ponder.

I've been bumping into pple's personal life account. There's a kind of guilt which made me wonder if i shld read. Bec, well, it was meant to be kept confidential i guess.
but... hmm.. I read lah since I was given to read, or perhaps it's good to know, or perhaps pple thought it might help in some way.

Hmm... Thanks, it does help. But sometimes, I rather not read so tt I don't know. haha. I know I'm contradicting myself. I want to know, cos I'm curious of what's really going on in those small minds, or maybe I OUGHT TO KNOW so tt I can work out my strategy better, but then... reading them does make me trip to a great extend, if not stumble.

I can only rate those readings as "Good to know" as of now. But the recent one was.... err... "Rather not know". haha.

I'll just 'hibernate' my emotions for the time being i guess. I've learnt too much of that for the past 7 years... I wonder if it's going to rebound and hit me hard one day. But too bad, I really got to let it remain as it is. Call me 'Emotionless', ya, JJ? haha, but I think the name 'Weakling' suits me better. :P It's not something which I can handle well now. I will think about it, but not react to it, can? Too many things to be taken into considerations. For the sake of the pple who will be affected by my well-being, the pple who are waiting for me to be there to help, the pple who are watching hw I'll react to this, and most importantly, the pple who are waiting for me to save, I HAVE TO pluck up my courage to Move On. I NEED TO and I HAVE TO. Hey! That's Bravery in me -1 pt scored! :D

15 mins ago...
*God really has a great sense of humour even in consolations. Thks for the recognition, lord.

Half day MC

I'm down with flu since yesterday morning. I was attending church with my mum and was sniffing all the way thinking tt it was my usual sinuses. But nope, it didn't go away. I quickly popped an antihistamine, but well, it was too late. The drowsiness sets in, my shoulder and neck aches...... Zoom! I was on my bed AT mum's place frm 12.30pm to 5.30pm.

The running nose didn't spare me till today. It was kind of under control though. All staff has to report sick at staff clinic... So, I travelled all the way down to workplace, just to report sick and get an mc. Monday morning... LONG QUEUE. From Triage to waiting area to collection of medicines... it took me close to 4 hrs. The waiting time turns me off frm being sick.

In fact, I wanna knock my head against the wall or maybe strangle myself. I didn't recognise my own Name, and hence missing my turn. This MO's pronunciation is so bad tt I didn't realise tt he is calling for me. Well Done...

It was not too long till I get to see the doc after they know tt I was actually ard... but the pharmacy was slow due to shortage of staff. When my name was called and i thought it was my turn to collect my medicine, the pharmacist told me they dun carry the medicines prescribed to me here. =.= So I got to walk to SGH's pharmacy to take queue no and hope tt they hv my medicine. Another hr gone...

Luckily I'm not THAT sick... If not, I think I would hv cried. haha

Oh yah, it was noon by then... Just a Half Day MC. No wonder the doctor asked if i want today or tmr's MC. But then, I am still on probation. No MC for me, It's considered my leave. T.T

Leave Freeze

This is bad... Our leave are freezed since Monday. Those who took leave last monday were asked to report to work. Those who are sick, were also asked to report sick at Staff Clinic. Sick also must crawl back to see doc at staff clinic......

Well, it's not a good time to fall sick. But my body's aching.

Anyway, hope tt things will be better by June. Else there goes my long approved leave for church camp. Sigh.


Failed badly for Kimberly mask fitting today. This ducky mask not good lor... Small is too small for me, regular is too big for me. The bitterness still lingers at the back of my throat... moreover, my lips are stained with the bitter medicine! Wouldn't wanna lick my lips for the time being. haha

Going for flu jab this fri... Zzzz....

Alright, I'm bored at work. Oh... my colleague may join us for the night cycling next week! Dunno if i'm be able to drag her for the bbq... hmmm...

Oxygen appreciation lesson

Gosh... Thermal Scanners are Up, All exits are shut other than the main entrance, and we r all Masked up in N95 -a more protected masks as compared to the normal surgical mask tt u often see.

I can't breathe properly... I need FRESH AIR! I was panting when I talked to my patients... I can't hear my colleagues correctly. I was dragged to learn hw to make announcements b4 my breakfast. :( I'm so so sad... (oh, I wonder if i sound like those MRT announcers.) And the worse thing is, I've got marks on my face caused by the tight fitted mask. That is ugly! Anyway, luckily I got prata for breakfast to make me happy today. Hmmm.. there goes my last night's swimming effort.

It's time to see a doctor and stock up my nasonex for my nose, and purple asthmatic puffs for my lungs.

"God, have mercy on the pple ard the world, and be with ALL of us..."

*****
CNA news update:

The Ministry of Health (MOH) has elevated Singapore's alert level from "green" to "yellow" to guard against swine flu.

It said this is to better brace the country to handle situations where there may be isolated imported cases but no sustained local transmission.

MOH said: "The World Health Organisation had raised the pandemic alert phase for the swine flu outbreaks from Phase 3 to Phase 4. The change to a higher phase indicates that there is sustained human-to-human transmission, capable of causing community-level outbreaks.

May 'YOU' be put under control

Let the swine flu be under control so tt less pple will die w/o salvation and less families/friends suffer frm the loss.

And... I dun wanna be mask up! Hmm, wat a self-centred pt of view. But i seriously can't breathe under the mask. Somemore, if there's confirm cases in S'pore, I'll hv to suffocate under tt full PPE (personal protective equipment). Perhaps I'll die of asthma attack rather than swine flu. Ha! Anyway, it's only performing hand hygiene after seeing every patient at the moment. I simply need more supplies of hand mosturizers for now. Anyone? haha. Hmm... my colleague was asked to station at the triage next week, under tt mask. Oh no, I think I'll be the next if the situation dun improve! Gosh..... T.T. Juz got a bad news. I was sabotaged by my boss to make announcement to the whole eye centre!!! Can't they just record the previous announcements? Dun hv to change pple to announce rite? Hw many more pple can they rotate if this is going to last for months??? Gosh. I dun wannnnn.......

The human swine flu development is ticking like a bomb. No one knows what will happen next. No one can predict the seriousness of the situation for the next second. It was still Green to pre-yellow alert this morning during briefing. At 10am, it was yellow. -.- Triage was set up at all exits, and patients jammed up there to be screened since yesterday. But i guess we can't help it cos there were a sudden 2 suspect cases. It best to be vigilant after the SARS epidemic. And this time round, it will be very much worse off.

"What’s worrying is that the new swine flu strain could spread faster and is harder to detect compared to the SARS (Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome) virus, which caused an epidemic in 2003."

For SARS, however, the person becomes infectious much later, a few days after the onset of fever.

If it (swine flu) gathers momentum and proves to be very effective in human—to—human transmission and it follows some of the very common characteristics of the influenza virus, then yes, the spread from human to human is much more efficient in influenza as compared to SARS." -CNA

Mmm... since I or rather We can't do very much to stop or prevent the epidemic, shall we put our hands together and pray? Shall we quit procratinating and spread the gospel to our family/relatives/friends? I guess facing swine flu isn't as scary as facing death without salvation.