My Presentzzzz!!!

Yeah.... Can't wait to see them! XD
Gosh.. I miss the smell of tommy girl. I love it since my sec - poly days. hee...

***Can't wait to see my dearest hubby MOST of cos... haha

Whose perception

Oh... My hubby will be back soon! In 6 hrs time to be exact :)
The thought of it makes me happy although we still won't get to see each other till next sunday.

Oh, I've pasted some house rules for deary at our bedroom door... hope he follows to minimise the risk of spreading if he suay suay has AH1N1. I super kaisu... scared he spread to his folks lah. Hope the post-sticks all over his monitor comforts him a little too! haha

I'm back at my JW place. Wore mask in the Car while on my way back... Juz being socially responsible to the kind souls who drove me back upon my request. haha. Can't get to slp despite the drowsiness. Too much things to do here, perhaps. haha. The only bad thing about here is, there's not enough food. The fridge is spoilt.. Gosh.


Hmm... another thought came to my mind... (the 1st was not published... err, I chose not to publish it. heehee).

Anyway, here's the other thought...

YOU SERIOUSLY DESERVE BETTER.

I think alot of pple feel tt way too lah, and you know it too... They told u as well.

but then, whose perception weighs more? yours or others? sometimes, love juz covers all. Hence, u hear some pple say, "So be it lah. He/She loves her/him too much liao..."
maybe you know it very well too... But you chose to let Love blind you. Cos it's LOVE wat...
hmm... sometimes I feel tt pple who uses too much intellectual to analyse Love, dunno What is LOVE.
And those who dun use adequate intellectual to handle Love, dunno the Practical issues of Love.
Oh well, but where's the balance? No one can tell you exactly.

Alright... We are heading no where... it's juz thoughts ya... thoughts that hv no definite black and white answer.

Love has no black and white answer too... Tt's y i dun regret loving. cos it's not wrong loving. Juz wise or dumb. haha

However, it's worth pondering if quite a no of significant pple tell you tt you deserve better. Think and discuss abt it b4 it's too late ya!
Else you will end up having to deceive yourself to make yourself feel better. Tt is wat I'll define as Qi1 Liang2... Oh, in fact I see a lot of pple in this situation. My heart goes out to them... but can't help... sometimes I help them to deceive themselves too. It's the best way to help them I guess -.-"

Time flies

Gosh... It's been a week! How fast!

My hubby will be back Tmr 6am. I will be gone later...

Going back to my mum's place to avoid him for a week :X

Waiting for someone to fetch me home later upon my request. Dunno wat time though.

Anyway, I was sick since thursday. Very slight sore throat only... rather it's discomfort on the neck, then shoulder ache, then VERY bad headache... After tt felt feverish, but not caught by thermal scanner/ thermometer. Felt better after self-medication in office. Then, Extremely weak after I got home in the evening... Confirm fever in the next morning on my conventional thermometer. Reported sick on fri...

Went to a GP... The infrared sensor forehead thermometer is SOOO Inaccurate. My temp was 36.8. I was surprised but thought maybe my fever subsided. Reported my temp to my office happily. However, later, when I was in the room with the doctor, his Ear thermometer indicated 38.3. -..- Well, not my problem rite... It's their inconsistency, or rather the thermometers... His attitude really cannot make it lah. Anyway, maybe doc r now very stressed due to H1N1 lah. Nvm. Hmm.. come to think of it, I was the one who told him I got fever in the morning after he said 'no fever rite?', then he checked again. Shld appreciate my honestly mah. :P

I do not know what's my diagnosis till now... and i think the doc does not know too. No runny nose and cough confused his assessment I guess. Kept asking me abt H1N1 thingy... Probably bec his clinic is H1N1 pandemic ready, and also bec I work in a hospital setting. Everytime I told him 'not tt I know of', he will reply 'even if hv u also dunno'. Fine Fine... I very guai replied him 'YES! PRECISELY!'... -..- Think he was pretty pissed off by my reply. haha. But well, his 'attitude' face is really unforgettable too. Oh, I was given 3 days mc. Fri, Sat, Sun... but... I dun work on Sat and Sun! haha. anyway, I was supposed to stay at home lah... meaning not to expose myself to others due to the pandemic. No one is sure what I'm carrying until I develop other symptoms or until i'm well. So, i shall guai guai stay at home. The 2 clinic assistants were later called into the room... then one came out to ask me for my occupation, later the other asked me to fill up the H1N1 survey form while giving me my medication. No one in the clinic was given 'this kind' of attention. =.=


Slept like a log from thurs evening till today... Yeah, I was practically sleeping the whole day yesterday. Woke up in the late morning to see doc, and late evening to eat and take medications... then slp again.

Felt slightly better now... Awake frm 12pm till now... 3 hrs! Break record liao. haha. but then i think i need to slp again. The drowsiness is making me uncomfortable.

I have never felt sooo Weak before... Even No Energy to walk lor. Sigh. Sick with no significant symptoms somemore... Duh...

*** I finally true-ly understand the frustration of not knowing the diagnosis yet feeling Sooo Unwell. It can drive u crazy. And I know y some pple will want to try doing Insane stuff juz to seek more medical Attention. Don't scold them lah... They r desperate pple... esp when they r not old enough to understand and not so educated like you lor.

No Chance for Nap Nap

Gosh... 2 suicidal cases in a row. It was super draining. But I guess I do enjoy what I'm doing.

Have been seeing patients one after another today. I end up not drinking enough cos I dun even hv a chance to leave my room to refill my bottle. Not good... cos My throat is not doing well. Afternoon is a little better cos I get to drink... but... I end up having to hold my bladder. -..- Hmmm... I realised I've been doing too much of tt lately. Can feel that my bladder muscles is weakening!

I'm having an headache... not due to workload though. As you can see, I got a chance to blog in office now. :P Rather, it's bec I have to wear a mask! I'm only away from work for 4 day lor... apparently, they started the mask procedure right after the day I went on leave. Hopefully I'll get used to it. And i do Pray that they won't want us to wear the N95 mask.

Oh... it's not completely negative for the 1st day of work after a long break. I've got Performance Bonus! Praise the Lord! haha. Well, it's pro-rated... but still, it's seriously like God giving me money... err, maybe money drop from heaven is easier to understand. Anyway, I didn't expect myself to get any bonus cos I'm still on probation. I've not done any appraisal yet (hmm... hw did they give me that rating siah?) Somemore, the financial year's cut off is somewhere the time I joined. Wahaha. Soooo happy even though I'll only received half of them upon confirmation and half in december, together with my 13th mth. Gosh... I still got bonus in times like this... Really wanna Thank God for the blessing!