Gosh.. I can't sleep... This is kind of pathetic. I wanna slp, I enjoy slping...
Well, since I can't slp, and sooo many thoughts running thru my head...
Let's talk abt the force frm the dark side. Hopefully I am able to slp then.
The dark side has always been out to distract and best in disguising itself.
It seldom shows its true self, especially to children of God, as they can be easily recognize.
Once children of God r able to recognize it, they will not be distracted.
Hence, the dark side tend to disguise itself, and create a smokescreen where children of God r unable to recognize them or identify that the havoc is created by them.
Children of God start to look upon the problems as problems created by others, self, or even God instead.
Once they start focusing on the problems, they ended up distracted....
Instead of focusing on loving God, knowing God and serving God, they got engrossed in disliking/ hating others, feelings of guilt, jealousy, competing, etc...
And of cos, not only does the dark side disguise itself to create problems, they disguise itself to create 'fake happiness'...
These 'fake happiness' r in fact earthly things tt children of God were granted to enjoy.
However, it was 'fake' when children of God start focusing on them, and lose sight of God.
They may include things like Love, academic, career, sex, family...
These are Good things tt God will want to grant us, however, if we lose sight of Him, these can in turn become stumbling blocks and make us sin...
It has became a SIGNIFICANT TASK for Children of God to identify the dark side today.
They r not so easily identified anymore.
Stay alert is one thing... the other more impt thing is to Pray that our Merciful Lord have mercy on Us.
Show it to us, clear away the smokescreen.
I always believe tt it's ok to lose track a little here and there, as Everyone does....
The impt thing is WE GET BACK ON TRACK, QUICK.
* It's really frustrating hearing snores when u can't slp! Argh"
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
After an eventful week...
I'm dead tired... but I enjoyed every single bit of it!
Tues: Mum was at A&E. Aunt accompanied her cos she felt dizzy and nausea frm a fall in the afternoon. Apparently, Mum juz sprained her wrist frm the fall. Hence, she still went for her church's christmas celebration when she suddenly suffered frm dizzy spells and felt nausea. Aunt brought her there. Mum called sis cos she thought she will be home and me, bz wif church as usual. This made me felt kind of bad. Anyway, sis called me after she reach. I got to know only after TQ's rehearsal when I'm wif LJ, accompanying her deliver some goods. She kindly sent me to the hospital. Thank God it was nothing serious, juz sprains. However, the scans, ECG, cum drips took several hours... and we can only leave the hospital by 3+am. It was raining cats and dogs then... I've finished my Nissin Laksa while waiting. Uncle came to fetch us home... Hw nice. I enjoyed the hours spent wif mum and sis. I'll spent more time and not forgo family time.
Wed: Christmas eve. Celebration in church. It was funny and entertaining... but most of all, Pastor Foo's sermon was SUPERB!!! I like the light stuff, then suddenly something impactful in between. Ha... nicely built in. The courage to do the calling was encouraging too... I do hope there are pple who quietly accepted christ despite no one raised up their hands tt day. Well, I had been one of those in the past. I went home and did not stay for count down. The count down didn't seem as impt as compared to my family. My mum needs me... Well, she does not really NEED me... but rather it'll be good if I'm ard for the night.
Thur: Christmas day. Prepared for youth camp and the starting of youth camp. We dun seem to be well-prepared after being so bz wif church activities. But well, I know it'll still run smoothly despite hiccups here and there... God's grace is always sufficient. I'm not at all worried. The team bonding, Christmas dinner, Christmas celebration and angels & devils went on very well... It was ridiculously well. It was interesting to hv all the debrief after the activities. And I will nv forget running away like MAD frm all the youths who were out to get back on us. =.= It was like running away during war times, carrying a HUGE BASKET! >.<
Fri: The prev event ended late... after bathing and supper, it was like 3+4am in the morning? We got to wake at 7... Yeah... we woke up early, for breakfast, and then games, worship and sermon. Well, some fell asleep, some tried not to. But I guess something impt still manage to drill into their mind. "Stand Under" the truth and not "Under Stand" the truth. Well, 1 pt is better than nothing lah. Off we went for our day at pasir ris.. God blessed us wif good weather, wif occasional drizzle... water games ended up wif several casualties. But still, they built sand wall for nearly an hr or so! Still ask for more time! Gosh... I really wonder what's so fun abt building sand wall? Oh, Mel and I ran like MAD again escaping their water bombs! The poor boys did not run... they warned us to go first. Thk u sooo much! Well, We ran a little too early lah.. they dun even bother to chase us. The night cycling was really fun... 1st time cycling out of pasir ris park... all the way to changi Village! It was really Shiok, wif Alvin controlling the bicycle. I'm on a Double bike! haha... I guess I will not enjoy it tt much if I'm on a single bike. Oh well, Casualties again. A VERY BAD ONE! >.< While we wanted to call our CS, cos we were too tired, the super energetic youths wanted to carry on wif the game. So well, they went off for their CS HALF-DEAD. haha. We camp out at pasir ris... on cemented ground. Poor Shaoqi di di... but it was a break through ya!
Sat: Went back church. Bathing was tough cos we were so so tired. Delayed the sermon timing to let them slp more. But amazingly, no one fell asleep! Or rather, they managed to keep themselves awake! And when tested at night, they are able to tell me L=know yr Limit, I=God's Instruction, F=Fear god, E=Express Godly living... They are impressive. Amazing Race was next.. I was still wondering if they r able to finish off the race... and worried abt the morale.. They surprise me! haha... Well done youths... It simply shows tt u r able to go far... Use it wisely for God's grace. Not forgetting the testimony sharing.. It was heart warming. Those who were not planned to share, shared. It shows spiritual maturity, and courage to share about God. It is also a chance for us to share to them about our God. Oh well... BBQ was great too. ;) Thks to our TQ peeps who helped us prepare so much food! We headed back for our closing...
Sun: Service.... I was dead. I hv to confess tt I FELL ASLEEP... even during worship while standing. oh well, AL and ZL knows the classic joke. >..< It was the 1st time since dunno when's the last time tt I slept during service man... luckily I sat at the corner. May it be the last time.
After service, I rushed down to attend my cuz's wedding... Everyone was well-dressed, except me.. in glasses somemore. I really can't be bothered lah although I do feel abit out of place. I was gong gong throughout... Glad I did manage to smile and chat lah.
Went straight home to slp since choir prac was over. I was a little sad but a little happy lah. Mixed feelings. haha. Alvin brought my bag to my place cos my hp charger is in the bag. how nice of him. He was already soooo tired. Yuling called me in my dreams too... I remembered wat she said, I think I'm good. haha. But I dun really remember Alvin came... until my sis told me alvin is sleeping in the living hall's sofa. >.< It was already 8+... After having a hard time waking him up, he finally moved his butt and went hm. After my dinner and some slacking... I went back to slp again.. it was 10+ and I slept till this morning 1plus!!!
Ok... I guess I can fall asleep now after endless recalling and typing... It's juz one the way of helping me slp. Meeting up with chuandao niang and mel tmr... and also my sec sch fren at night.
Oh no.. i've grown so much darker... Sadzzz...
Tues: Mum was at A&E. Aunt accompanied her cos she felt dizzy and nausea frm a fall in the afternoon. Apparently, Mum juz sprained her wrist frm the fall. Hence, she still went for her church's christmas celebration when she suddenly suffered frm dizzy spells and felt nausea. Aunt brought her there. Mum called sis cos she thought she will be home and me, bz wif church as usual. This made me felt kind of bad. Anyway, sis called me after she reach. I got to know only after TQ's rehearsal when I'm wif LJ, accompanying her deliver some goods. She kindly sent me to the hospital. Thank God it was nothing serious, juz sprains. However, the scans, ECG, cum drips took several hours... and we can only leave the hospital by 3+am. It was raining cats and dogs then... I've finished my Nissin Laksa while waiting. Uncle came to fetch us home... Hw nice. I enjoyed the hours spent wif mum and sis. I'll spent more time and not forgo family time.
Wed: Christmas eve. Celebration in church. It was funny and entertaining... but most of all, Pastor Foo's sermon was SUPERB!!! I like the light stuff, then suddenly something impactful in between. Ha... nicely built in. The courage to do the calling was encouraging too... I do hope there are pple who quietly accepted christ despite no one raised up their hands tt day. Well, I had been one of those in the past. I went home and did not stay for count down. The count down didn't seem as impt as compared to my family. My mum needs me... Well, she does not really NEED me... but rather it'll be good if I'm ard for the night.
Thur: Christmas day. Prepared for youth camp and the starting of youth camp. We dun seem to be well-prepared after being so bz wif church activities. But well, I know it'll still run smoothly despite hiccups here and there... God's grace is always sufficient. I'm not at all worried. The team bonding, Christmas dinner, Christmas celebration and angels & devils went on very well... It was ridiculously well. It was interesting to hv all the debrief after the activities. And I will nv forget running away like MAD frm all the youths who were out to get back on us. =.= It was like running away during war times, carrying a HUGE BASKET! >.<
Fri: The prev event ended late... after bathing and supper, it was like 3+4am in the morning? We got to wake at 7... Yeah... we woke up early, for breakfast, and then games, worship and sermon. Well, some fell asleep, some tried not to. But I guess something impt still manage to drill into their mind. "Stand Under" the truth and not "Under Stand" the truth. Well, 1 pt is better than nothing lah. Off we went for our day at pasir ris.. God blessed us wif good weather, wif occasional drizzle... water games ended up wif several casualties. But still, they built sand wall for nearly an hr or so! Still ask for more time! Gosh... I really wonder what's so fun abt building sand wall? Oh, Mel and I ran like MAD again escaping their water bombs! The poor boys did not run... they warned us to go first. Thk u sooo much! Well, We ran a little too early lah.. they dun even bother to chase us. The night cycling was really fun... 1st time cycling out of pasir ris park... all the way to changi Village! It was really Shiok, wif Alvin controlling the bicycle. I'm on a Double bike! haha... I guess I will not enjoy it tt much if I'm on a single bike. Oh well, Casualties again. A VERY BAD ONE! >.< While we wanted to call our CS, cos we were too tired, the super energetic youths wanted to carry on wif the game. So well, they went off for their CS HALF-DEAD. haha. We camp out at pasir ris... on cemented ground. Poor Shaoqi di di... but it was a break through ya!
Sat: Went back church. Bathing was tough cos we were so so tired. Delayed the sermon timing to let them slp more. But amazingly, no one fell asleep! Or rather, they managed to keep themselves awake! And when tested at night, they are able to tell me L=know yr Limit, I=God's Instruction, F=Fear god, E=Express Godly living... They are impressive. Amazing Race was next.. I was still wondering if they r able to finish off the race... and worried abt the morale.. They surprise me! haha... Well done youths... It simply shows tt u r able to go far... Use it wisely for God's grace. Not forgetting the testimony sharing.. It was heart warming. Those who were not planned to share, shared. It shows spiritual maturity, and courage to share about God. It is also a chance for us to share to them about our God. Oh well... BBQ was great too. ;) Thks to our TQ peeps who helped us prepare so much food! We headed back for our closing...
Sun: Service.... I was dead. I hv to confess tt I FELL ASLEEP... even during worship while standing. oh well, AL and ZL knows the classic joke. >..< It was the 1st time since dunno when's the last time tt I slept during service man... luckily I sat at the corner. May it be the last time.
After service, I rushed down to attend my cuz's wedding... Everyone was well-dressed, except me.. in glasses somemore. I really can't be bothered lah although I do feel abit out of place. I was gong gong throughout... Glad I did manage to smile and chat lah.
Went straight home to slp since choir prac was over. I was a little sad but a little happy lah. Mixed feelings. haha. Alvin brought my bag to my place cos my hp charger is in the bag. how nice of him. He was already soooo tired. Yuling called me in my dreams too... I remembered wat she said, I think I'm good. haha. But I dun really remember Alvin came... until my sis told me alvin is sleeping in the living hall's sofa. >.< It was already 8+... After having a hard time waking him up, he finally moved his butt and went hm. After my dinner and some slacking... I went back to slp again.. it was 10+ and I slept till this morning 1plus!!!
Ok... I guess I can fall asleep now after endless recalling and typing... It's juz one the way of helping me slp. Meeting up with chuandao niang and mel tmr... and also my sec sch fren at night.
Oh no.. i've grown so much darker... Sadzzz...
Sunday, December 21, 2008
New Balance~~
There is no right or wrong...
as long as all will achieve the same goal...
and end up in the same place.
Be open minded.
It's juz the style.
But... some style does hurt alot & incur loses.
hence, choose wisely
Ponder how they will feel when u try to push for what u think is good & right for them.
Perhaps that helps them more than simply trying to achieve some goals of yours.
Oh.. He made tt mistake before.
It was chaotic.
But he had changed, Since.
And.. things juz stabilizes.
It was God's Wisdom & grace.
as long as all will achieve the same goal...
and end up in the same place.
Be open minded.
It's juz the style.
But... some style does hurt alot & incur loses.
hence, choose wisely
Ponder how they will feel when u try to push for what u think is good & right for them.
Perhaps that helps them more than simply trying to achieve some goals of yours.
Oh.. He made tt mistake before.
It was chaotic.
But he had changed, Since.
And.. things juz stabilizes.
It was God's Wisdom & grace.
Irony
It was sooooo Ironic tt I wanna laugh at myself...
I shld hv recorded wat I've said to u @ toast box and play it back to myself now.
>..<
No one but U can perform a miracle...
I shld hv recorded wat I've said to u @ toast box and play it back to myself now.
>..<
No one but U can perform a miracle...
Monday, December 15, 2008
Rest in Him
My attachment is over... and tt marks the end of my 2 3/4 yrs of studies.
The mixed feelings are there...
On one hand, i'm happy tt it's all over. On the other, I'm pretty depressed tt I've got to face the world again.
Ha ha ha. As if i'm hiding frm the world now.
Anyway, I'm resting in Him now. At the same time preparing for youth camp and my wedding.
Will find a job soon... Shan't rest too long!
Maybe.... next yr? Hee
Oh.. PTL tt the photo taking and photo selection had been a smooth process.
No rain on the day of our photo taking, with nice sunset and two photographers!
It was enjoyable and not as tiring. We even had the energy to eat steamboat after the session. hee~
Photo selection is also great! Although it's the toughest process but we managed to choose 42 photos w/o topping up!
Meaning w/o hving to pay additional money. We went there twice lah... 1st day abit noisy and distracting, wif the photographers and uncle chatting & joking wif us. The 2nd day of selection was very much peaceful, wif a nice lady helping us cutting down on the photos. No Force selling at all... No one trying to make us top up photos. haha... It was God's grace man... cos many couples will end up in a sour note wif the pple @ their bridal studio. But ours was peaceful, wif pple helping us cut photos somemore. haha!!!
Well... Let's see if I can get my momentum back.
Oh, I'm pretty sad tt my mum had to attend another church. I felt as though I hv neglected her and am being really selfish.
She's wif my aunt there... and let's see if she can get used to the church and if my aunt can truly accompany her.
If my problematic aunt's temperament acts up, I guess i'll hv no choice but to accompany her. Wat abt my sis? oh well, I think she'll follow us... but it's still up to her lah. I'm kind of stuck in btw. I'm risking two souls... but if i were to choose, I'd rather give up on my sis and secure my mum since my sis is younger and hv many more yrs of her live to help. haha. :P
U see, it's really not easy bringing yr own family to know Christ... but to me, I feel tt it's even more difficult to make them stay in the faith. Esp the older ones. For me, my job for one had finished, which I'm glad it ended well, and there's another ongoing one... not many yrs left, so I'm holding on tight.
Ok... keeping my fingers cross for now... It's not as though she is not adapting there or Alone w/o anyone she knows or does not feel like attending church anymore. I'm juz keeping my radar on, tt's all.
The mixed feelings are there...
On one hand, i'm happy tt it's all over. On the other, I'm pretty depressed tt I've got to face the world again.
Ha ha ha. As if i'm hiding frm the world now.
Anyway, I'm resting in Him now. At the same time preparing for youth camp and my wedding.
Will find a job soon... Shan't rest too long!
Maybe.... next yr? Hee
Oh.. PTL tt the photo taking and photo selection had been a smooth process.
No rain on the day of our photo taking, with nice sunset and two photographers!
It was enjoyable and not as tiring. We even had the energy to eat steamboat after the session. hee~
Photo selection is also great! Although it's the toughest process but we managed to choose 42 photos w/o topping up!
Meaning w/o hving to pay additional money. We went there twice lah... 1st day abit noisy and distracting, wif the photographers and uncle chatting & joking wif us. The 2nd day of selection was very much peaceful, wif a nice lady helping us cutting down on the photos. No Force selling at all... No one trying to make us top up photos. haha... It was God's grace man... cos many couples will end up in a sour note wif the pple @ their bridal studio. But ours was peaceful, wif pple helping us cut photos somemore. haha!!!
Well... Let's see if I can get my momentum back.
Oh, I'm pretty sad tt my mum had to attend another church. I felt as though I hv neglected her and am being really selfish.
She's wif my aunt there... and let's see if she can get used to the church and if my aunt can truly accompany her.
If my problematic aunt's temperament acts up, I guess i'll hv no choice but to accompany her. Wat abt my sis? oh well, I think she'll follow us... but it's still up to her lah. I'm kind of stuck in btw. I'm risking two souls... but if i were to choose, I'd rather give up on my sis and secure my mum since my sis is younger and hv many more yrs of her live to help. haha. :P
U see, it's really not easy bringing yr own family to know Christ... but to me, I feel tt it's even more difficult to make them stay in the faith. Esp the older ones. For me, my job for one had finished, which I'm glad it ended well, and there's another ongoing one... not many yrs left, so I'm holding on tight.
Ok... keeping my fingers cross for now... It's not as though she is not adapting there or Alone w/o anyone she knows or does not feel like attending church anymore. I'm juz keeping my radar on, tt's all.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
U'll not be forgotten
Time flies and we've moved on...
Time will heal and it's true...
Time nv stop for any of us but it does not restrict u anymore...
How nice, cos I'll hv a chance to catch up with u.
No matter how long,
Be Sure that,
You'll nv be forgotten.
;)
Time will heal and it's true...
Time nv stop for any of us but it does not restrict u anymore...
How nice, cos I'll hv a chance to catch up with u.
No matter how long,
Be Sure that,
You'll nv be forgotten.
;)
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
PTL
Good things hv happened today.... PTL!!!
Early in the morning, I was told to help discharge a kid to the foster mother.
I still remembered when the case was juz known to us, my colleague and I visited him on a SAT TQ time.
He was utterly sick, unresponsive, totally 'damaged'.
Imagine a 4 yrs old boy who was only 6kg and can only walk 10 steps...
He does not respond to anyone, including his dearest sister... or anything, including food or toys.
He is seriously malnourished, and medically defined as failure to thrive and had global developmental delay.
For these factors, he unwillingly made the history for serious ill-treatment.
We fought hard to push the police to charge the caregivers.
Anyway, today, he offered me a HUGE SMILE upon seeing me.
His appetite is good, and he was being naughty with the nurse who fed him.
After which, the nurse carried him down to show me how well he can walk now.
He wore his shoes, which the doctors were so excited about...
He played mischievously with all the lady nurses... pinching each other's noses.
His sister and the foster mother came to fetch him.
He had a little sadness on his face upon leaving the hospital.
However, he was quick to play with his sis and another foster girl.
The 3 of them were having a really good time together!
The sight of this warms my heart.
I thank God for his progress, as I know this is a job where I have to fully rely on Him.
I can only remove them from further harm, but am not able to heal their already broken soul.
Who else can, other than Him.
May God bless him and sis for their future endeavor.
Another good thing seems so unimportant as compared to the above.
My 2nd Gown Selection was successful.
Hee Hee *.*
Two of my sisters were there to help me on both days... I'm Thankful for my Family!
Early in the morning, I was told to help discharge a kid to the foster mother.
I still remembered when the case was juz known to us, my colleague and I visited him on a SAT TQ time.
He was utterly sick, unresponsive, totally 'damaged'.
Imagine a 4 yrs old boy who was only 6kg and can only walk 10 steps...
He does not respond to anyone, including his dearest sister... or anything, including food or toys.
He is seriously malnourished, and medically defined as failure to thrive and had global developmental delay.
For these factors, he unwillingly made the history for serious ill-treatment.
We fought hard to push the police to charge the caregivers.
Anyway, today, he offered me a HUGE SMILE upon seeing me.
His appetite is good, and he was being naughty with the nurse who fed him.
After which, the nurse carried him down to show me how well he can walk now.
He wore his shoes, which the doctors were so excited about...
He played mischievously with all the lady nurses... pinching each other's noses.
His sister and the foster mother came to fetch him.
He had a little sadness on his face upon leaving the hospital.
However, he was quick to play with his sis and another foster girl.
The 3 of them were having a really good time together!
The sight of this warms my heart.
I thank God for his progress, as I know this is a job where I have to fully rely on Him.
I can only remove them from further harm, but am not able to heal their already broken soul.
Who else can, other than Him.
May God bless him and sis for their future endeavor.
Another good thing seems so unimportant as compared to the above.
My 2nd Gown Selection was successful.
Hee Hee *.*
Two of my sisters were there to help me on both days... I'm Thankful for my Family!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
ADVOCATE *Inspired by the caller last night
I WANT TO BE brave enough to advocate for people who are stigmatised, discriminated and labelled.
That's what my profession upholds, and I'm ashamed by how timid I can be when it comes to advocating.
I am afraid of disagreeing... esp to those who appears harsh and self-righteous.
But I know I'm owing these pple when I don't speak up for them...
I know if I had spoken up for them, It'll make a whole lot of difference in their lives.
Oh, yes. I do have success story.
Juz one. -.-
I'm glad I have done it and able to convince the other party.
I used the soft approach of cos... reasoning kind of stuff.
(You wouldn't wanna see me lobbying, would u? I'll prob end up in another place.)
Everyone deserves a 2nd chance. (Incl. myself, You and YOU!)
I will still bring up the Yellow Ribbon Project, even though it's not what I'm focusing here.
It's bec of our unfair stigmatisation and labelling that these ex-con are unable to Reintegrate and start a new life.
Face it. It's OUR fault here.
(Despite other issues of them going back to their old ways, I must say that these are completely two separate issue. )
*Support the Yellow Ribbon Project k!!*
Similarly, we tend to discriminate and label people in our daily lives.
Yes. They may be people who had made grave mistakes in their lives, but that doesn't give us the right to stigmatize them.
They are already bearing the consequences. Can't u see?
You might not know by just labelling/stigmatizing them, you have already IMPRISONED some, DISABLED some and KILLED some.
I believed your intentions are otherwise or You have probably simply overlooked.
But pls, even if you have no passion in helping these people, STOP putting huge stones infront of them.
What good does it do to you when you see them fall flat on their faces again? To PROVE that you are right in what you have said?
BTW, Jesus Advocated for Sinners too!!! Of cos Sinners who r willing to change and be a follower of Christ.
So, WWJD when he sees pple being discriminated and labelled?
He stood up, Advocated for them by forgiving their sins and stopped pple from condemning them.
And Jesus said, "Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more."
**********
Let's give them a 2nd chance kkkkkk......
That's what my profession upholds, and I'm ashamed by how timid I can be when it comes to advocating.
I am afraid of disagreeing... esp to those who appears harsh and self-righteous.
But I know I'm owing these pple when I don't speak up for them...
I know if I had spoken up for them, It'll make a whole lot of difference in their lives.
Oh, yes. I do have success story.
Juz one. -.-
I'm glad I have done it and able to convince the other party.
I used the soft approach of cos... reasoning kind of stuff.
(You wouldn't wanna see me lobbying, would u? I'll prob end up in another place.)
Everyone deserves a 2nd chance. (Incl. myself, You and YOU!)
I will still bring up the Yellow Ribbon Project, even though it's not what I'm focusing here.
It's bec of our unfair stigmatisation and labelling that these ex-con are unable to Reintegrate and start a new life.
Face it. It's OUR fault here.
(Despite other issues of them going back to their old ways, I must say that these are completely two separate issue. )
*Support the Yellow Ribbon Project k!!*
Similarly, we tend to discriminate and label people in our daily lives.
Yes. They may be people who had made grave mistakes in their lives, but that doesn't give us the right to stigmatize them.
They are already bearing the consequences. Can't u see?
You might not know by just labelling/stigmatizing them, you have already IMPRISONED some, DISABLED some and KILLED some.
I believed your intentions are otherwise or You have probably simply overlooked.
But pls, even if you have no passion in helping these people, STOP putting huge stones infront of them.
What good does it do to you when you see them fall flat on their faces again? To PROVE that you are right in what you have said?
BTW, Jesus Advocated for Sinners too!!! Of cos Sinners who r willing to change and be a follower of Christ.
So, WWJD when he sees pple being discriminated and labelled?
He stood up, Advocated for them by forgiving their sins and stopped pple from condemning them.
And Jesus said, "Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more."
**********
Let's give them a 2nd chance kkkkkk......
Thursday, September 4, 2008
I Love my Students
It's probably gonna be my last teachers' day this year. Hence, I'm taking special notice of it.
Not the gifts of cos (though I hv the intention of posting them some time later ;P), I'm more particular of the impact that I've made in their lives.
So, I have concluded that...
I'm pretty successful. ;D
I love my students (including those I'm tutoring),
AND
They LOVE me. ;P
"A hundred years from now,
It will not matter what my bank account was,
the sort of house I live in,
or the kind of car I drove.
But the world may be different
because I was important
in a life of a child."
~Kathy Davis~
*It was a 10 mins long goodbye today at the entrance of Charis centre cos it's the last day of work for the year. Even though I told them I'll be back next year, I shared the same feelings as them. Thks for all the hugs, goodbyes, I like u, I miss u, bu she de kind of stuffs... but Argh, I hate goodbyes.
Tt's prob Y I shun frm all these for a long long time ever since THEN. I make sure I keep an appropriate protective personal space, to be safe. I choose to be analytical rather than emotive. But well, I can't stop yrself frm 'feeling', can I?
^^The person who appears strong is in fact vulnerable. No matter how much u try to cover up, U KNOW u r still who u r.
Not the gifts of cos (though I hv the intention of posting them some time later ;P), I'm more particular of the impact that I've made in their lives.
So, I have concluded that...
I'm pretty successful. ;D
I love my students (including those I'm tutoring),
AND
They LOVE me. ;P
"A hundred years from now,
It will not matter what my bank account was,
the sort of house I live in,
or the kind of car I drove.
But the world may be different
because I was important
in a life of a child."
~Kathy Davis~
*It was a 10 mins long goodbye today at the entrance of Charis centre cos it's the last day of work for the year. Even though I told them I'll be back next year, I shared the same feelings as them. Thks for all the hugs, goodbyes, I like u, I miss u, bu she de kind of stuffs... but Argh, I hate goodbyes.
Tt's prob Y I shun frm all these for a long long time ever since THEN. I make sure I keep an appropriate protective personal space, to be safe. I choose to be analytical rather than emotive. But well, I can't stop yrself frm 'feeling', can I?
^^The person who appears strong is in fact vulnerable. No matter how much u try to cover up, U KNOW u r still who u r.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Thank You, Lord. (Part 2)
I've got my placement in MCYS Child Protection Unit (Investigation)!!!
It is unbelievable! It seems completely hopeless... and then, God granted me with it.
On the spot when the staff announced it, the first thing that came to my mind was to thank God.
Well, it seem like a small thing... yeah, it actually is... But I simply felt so pampered by God.
Juz like what some of my classmates have commented, everything is so rosy for me now. If they were me, they'll be extremely delighted.
YES. Praise the Lord for tt!
It's TOO rosy that I find it hard to believe it as well.
Well, of cos, it's not simply bec of the placement thingy.
They've seen in my life, from small to big things, God has appeared to plan it out nicely for me.
When it seems impossible, God has made things possible.
And I'm always progressing steadily into diff stages of life without much hiccups.
Yup! I'm extremely thankful for all these, and also thankful that others are able to see U thru the wonders that U have done in my life. :)
It is unbelievable! It seems completely hopeless... and then, God granted me with it.
On the spot when the staff announced it, the first thing that came to my mind was to thank God.
Well, it seem like a small thing... yeah, it actually is... But I simply felt so pampered by God.
Juz like what some of my classmates have commented, everything is so rosy for me now. If they were me, they'll be extremely delighted.
YES. Praise the Lord for tt!
It's TOO rosy that I find it hard to believe it as well.
Well, of cos, it's not simply bec of the placement thingy.
They've seen in my life, from small to big things, God has appeared to plan it out nicely for me.
When it seems impossible, God has made things possible.
And I'm always progressing steadily into diff stages of life without much hiccups.
Yup! I'm extremely thankful for all these, and also thankful that others are able to see U thru the wonders that U have done in my life. :)
Thank You, Lord.
Today marks the end of my study life...
Basically it's just end of classes... I still have 3 more months of placement and after tt, it'll really be THE END of the course.
It was unbelievable how I've been through all these... and all I can say is: Praise the Lord!
Firstly, it was the finances...
how on earth am I going to fork out $42k? But guess what God has planned for me... VCF funding of 30%, Lee Foundation funding of close to 30%, Love gift frm Charis, Insurance pay out (Juz in time), Lots of tuition kids, Increment of tuition fees by parents, and support frm Mummy ;)
It was stressful when I work out my finances every mth too. But I've managed to scrimp and save till I've still got some money for occasional buffets... and most importantly, Savings. ;P
Secondly, it was the crazy life style...
For a normal day when I have work and class, it was 7am-3pm work, 4.30-6pm tuition, 7pm-10pm class... @.@
Other days when I dun have work, I got to do my assignments, give tuitions, and class...
For some days when I dun have work and class... I will do my assignments and give tuitions.
Other than work and classes, I still have to juggle church life, friends, and relationship.
It was seriously crazy, I tell u...
but things got so much better this semester due to a change of system. Fewer number of classes! I was able to breathe... a little more. ;)
Then, there were the assignments...
Endless of thousandsss words essays makes me nausea, even the thought of it now. I guess I can even publish a thick book with the number of essays that I've done.
With the limited number of hours that I have, I've learnt to be efficient. When the others have so much free time, while mine were all packed with other commitments, I've learnt to work within my means and hold on to what I believed in.
God pulled me through and I did well (in my eyes)!
Lastly, it was the classes itself.
The stressful presentations and the freaking role-plays are the scariest thing in my entire study life. It was like throwing someone who can't swim into the sea... But it's all over now! I've attended all of them, and I survived! And..., I will still freak out in role-plays. -.- haha.
Anyhow, I've made it... Praise the Lord!
Basically it's just end of classes... I still have 3 more months of placement and after tt, it'll really be THE END of the course.
It was unbelievable how I've been through all these... and all I can say is: Praise the Lord!
Firstly, it was the finances...
how on earth am I going to fork out $42k? But guess what God has planned for me... VCF funding of 30%, Lee Foundation funding of close to 30%, Love gift frm Charis, Insurance pay out (Juz in time), Lots of tuition kids, Increment of tuition fees by parents, and support frm Mummy ;)
It was stressful when I work out my finances every mth too. But I've managed to scrimp and save till I've still got some money for occasional buffets... and most importantly, Savings. ;P
Secondly, it was the crazy life style...
For a normal day when I have work and class, it was 7am-3pm work, 4.30-6pm tuition, 7pm-10pm class... @.@
Other days when I dun have work, I got to do my assignments, give tuitions, and class...
For some days when I dun have work and class... I will do my assignments and give tuitions.
Other than work and classes, I still have to juggle church life, friends, and relationship.
It was seriously crazy, I tell u...
but things got so much better this semester due to a change of system. Fewer number of classes! I was able to breathe... a little more. ;)
Then, there were the assignments...
Endless of thousandsss words essays makes me nausea, even the thought of it now. I guess I can even publish a thick book with the number of essays that I've done.
With the limited number of hours that I have, I've learnt to be efficient. When the others have so much free time, while mine were all packed with other commitments, I've learnt to work within my means and hold on to what I believed in.
God pulled me through and I did well (in my eyes)!
Lastly, it was the classes itself.
The stressful presentations and the freaking role-plays are the scariest thing in my entire study life. It was like throwing someone who can't swim into the sea... But it's all over now! I've attended all of them, and I survived! And..., I will still freak out in role-plays. -.- haha.
Anyhow, I've made it... Praise the Lord!
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Ridiculous
I've always wanted to go MCYS for my placement and have been praying about it...
At first, it was skewed towards the hospital setting (my 2nd option) and low chance for MCYS.
I was telling myself nvm, God must hv felt tt the hospital setting is more suitable for me...
however,
Now...
I've got my place in MCYS but stuck btw two units --> Foster Care & Child Protection! (Over-powered prayers?? haha)
SSTI wants me to go Foster Care, but my tutor offered me child protection Investigation unit.
I'm more towards the liking for child protection investigation lah... more exciting and challenging. Like wat my fren said, like CSI! Working with children is my 'forte' and something I enjoyed somemore.. but SSTI said foster care kind of confirmed already, so its unfair to them. Which means I may have to stick with foster care unit.
Hai...
Still fighting for child protection... but chances seems low.
But it's ok... No matter what's the final decision frm SSTI, I'll juz thankfully accept.
My prayer is simply to place me in somewhere which suits me best and I can have an excellent learning experience, plus a GOOD SUP!
At first, it was skewed towards the hospital setting (my 2nd option) and low chance for MCYS.
I was telling myself nvm, God must hv felt tt the hospital setting is more suitable for me...
however,
Now...
I've got my place in MCYS but stuck btw two units --> Foster Care & Child Protection! (Over-powered prayers?? haha)
SSTI wants me to go Foster Care, but my tutor offered me child protection Investigation unit.
I'm more towards the liking for child protection investigation lah... more exciting and challenging. Like wat my fren said, like CSI! Working with children is my 'forte' and something I enjoyed somemore.. but SSTI said foster care kind of confirmed already, so its unfair to them. Which means I may have to stick with foster care unit.
Hai...
Still fighting for child protection... but chances seems low.
But it's ok... No matter what's the final decision frm SSTI, I'll juz thankfully accept.
My prayer is simply to place me in somewhere which suits me best and I can have an excellent learning experience, plus a GOOD SUP!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
3 more weeks to go
It's close to a month since my last update...
I'm still alive though I'm still pushing myself to get things done asap.
Shall post more 3 weeks later... my semester ends then. ;(
Then it'll be my placement.
So tentatively, I juz wanna say a very BIG THANK U to my God, since Nothing else is worth my time to post for now.
His Timing Rocks, His Plans Rocks!
Everything came at the right timing, so well planned tt I will always be grateful.
And also... I'm LOVING 0104!
*oh, U dun hv to feel threaten at all, HTB. ;)*
I'm still alive though I'm still pushing myself to get things done asap.
Shall post more 3 weeks later... my semester ends then. ;(
Then it'll be my placement.
So tentatively, I juz wanna say a very BIG THANK U to my God, since Nothing else is worth my time to post for now.
His Timing Rocks, His Plans Rocks!
Everything came at the right timing, so well planned tt I will always be grateful.
And also... I'm LOVING 0104!
*oh, U dun hv to feel threaten at all, HTB. ;)*
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Suppose to
Who determine what we are 'Suppose To' do?
Is it God, ourselves, others, feelings, urgency, promises, or???
Well, I guess all of us hv used many other factors to determine 'Suppose To'.
Some factors are just subset of another... and they overlaps.
Well... that's not the point actually.
The point is, I am Suppose To be doing my assignment...
And apparently, I'm not. Cos I simply can't get myself started.
:( This is depressing.
I've wasted the whole morning.
Is it God, ourselves, others, feelings, urgency, promises, or???
Well, I guess all of us hv used many other factors to determine 'Suppose To'.
Some factors are just subset of another... and they overlaps.
Well... that's not the point actually.
The point is, I am Suppose To be doing my assignment...
And apparently, I'm not. Cos I simply can't get myself started.
:( This is depressing.
I've wasted the whole morning.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Mental Health is 123
This is not a must read article... but it's good to know since more and more singaporeans are mentally unhealthy.
You might want to read about it too... Who knows who needs some help?
Do a simple math calculation for yr score... and see hw many percent u get.
Source: Extracted frm National mental health association
Mental health is 123
(A mental health checklist)
Many people, when they hear of the term mental health think of mental illnesses.
Mental health is something all of us want for ourselves, whether we know it by name or not. When we speak of happiness, peace of mind, enjoyment, or satisfaction, we are usually talking about mental health.
Mental health has to do with everybody's everyday life. It means the overall way that people get along -with their families, at school, on the job, at play, with their peers, in their communities. It involves the way that each person harmonises his or her desires, ambition, abilities, ideals, feeling and conscience in order to meet the demands of life. It has to do with:
1. How you feel about yrself
2. How you feel about other people
3. how you are able to meet the demands of life.
There are some of the characteristics of people who are mentally healthy.
1. They feel good about themselves
~ They are not overwhelmed by their own emotions -fears, anger, love, jealousy, guilt or worries.
~ They can take life's disappointments in stride.
~ They have a tolerant, easy-going attitude toward themselves as well as others and they can laugh at themselves.
~ They neither underestimate nor overestimate their abilities.
~ They can accept their own shortcomings.
~ They have self-respect.
~ They feel able to deal with most situations.
~ They take pleasure in simple, everyday things.
2. They feel comfortable with other people
~ They are able to give love and to consider the interests of others.
~ They have personal relationships that are satisfying and lasting.
~ They like and trust others, and feel that others will like and trust them.
~ They respect the many differences they find in people.
~ They do not take advantages of others nor do they allow others to take advantage of them.
~ They can feel they are part of a group.
~ They feel a sense of responsibility to fellow human beings.
3. They are able to meet the demands of life
~ They do something about their problems as they arise.
~ They accept their responsibilities.
~ They shape their environment whenever possible; they adjust to it whenever necessary.
~ They plan ahead and do not fear the future.
~ They welcome new experiences and ideas.
~ They make use of their talents.
~ They set realistic goals for themselves.
~ They are able to make their own decisions.
~ They are satisfied with putting their effort into what they do.
Goodbye Holidays
My new semester started last Fri...
The thought of it is kind of depressing, but I don't feel depressed. Or should I say I think I should be feeling depressed, I ought to feel depressed, but when I ask myself if I'm really depressed, I realised I'm not.
Ah~ oh well, I'm juz thankful I'm not depressed.
My holidays were short but it seems long.
How shld I put it?
~It is a Short but TIME-CRAWLING holiday.
Sounds good?
Wat does it reflect, anyway?
My holidays were boring? No, definitely not.
I'm a workaholic? No, I'm pretty lazy.
I'm lacking in prog? No, I'd only been staying home for abt 3 days.
Com'on, it's easy!
I'm simply easily satisfied and pleased! haha
Juz give me Food and Sleep... I'll be grateful to u for the rest of my life! (Nah.. out of pt)
In fact, I think I wanted the sem to start early, so that It'll end earlier.
I can't wait to go thru the whole phase of high mental & emotional tension!
I'm not a psycho freak... I juz want to get it over and done with...
The following is juz ritual to get me started for the new semester... dun hv to read on actually... unless u got lots of time.
I've came up wif a holiday timetable for myself and now, when I look at it again...
I realised I've accomplished most of the things I listed.
From Catching up wif pple to Leisure to Others...
I'd onli missed out a few...
Accomplished:
Calling pple for donations (good response but meager sum),
catching up wif yangbin (glad he returned call),
ex-colleagues (tough coordinating but made it),
attachment colleagues (it's been a yr!),
Zhi an (breakfast b4 service was a challenge),
Longxiang (Happy Birthday @ Fish & co),
Elder sis & Little Aiden (Thks 4 remembering me as Ah Yi),
2nd sis (Young @ heart, but perhaps leave behind some Japanese Culture. hee!),
Alvin's parents (Happy Birthday, thks 4 the frog leg porridge),
Lihui (Always close to the heart),
Jieming (We've hv grown up, Goodbye bro, forgotten to wish u well),
Shijie (Happy Birthday @ Parris, wif sis too),
do Clay dolls (all thks to JJ),
go for Spa + Massage (Complementary frm Sis),
Trim Hair (Jason @ Pioneer mall Kimage has superb cutting & PR skill),
Shopping (Spent a bomb-mainly on things I need though),
recap my rusty Sanfu (my 1st accomplished task!),
go for a pre-gastroscopy check-up (Waste of time & $),
come up wif TQ games timetable (one of my 1st few accomplished task),
visit to dentist (Very happy wif the service -All stains GONE!),
watch movie online (Only managed to watch one cos seldom home),
a short trip wif my family (Went Genting and shopped @ KL).
Missed out:
Meeting up wif Pri sch frens (hesitated in coordinating),
Weijie (his poor time management),
peishi (Work late tt day, then gave birth the next day -..-),
Poly Frens (someone couldn't make it @ the very last min)
Little Hazel & Rina (I was sick tt day >.<)
Exercise class (Too Lazy, let my classmate down though ;P),
go for Lentils-making class (wanna save some funds).
Oh, there are also things that happened not according to plan...
Like the whole family going to the wedding studio 4 my sis, Jap buffet after tt @ United square, Aiden's 2nd BD party, etc, etc....
Alright... tt is it....
Goodbye Holidays!!!
The thought of it is kind of depressing, but I don't feel depressed. Or should I say I think I should be feeling depressed, I ought to feel depressed, but when I ask myself if I'm really depressed, I realised I'm not.
Ah~ oh well, I'm juz thankful I'm not depressed.
My holidays were short but it seems long.
How shld I put it?
~It is a Short but TIME-CRAWLING holiday.
Sounds good?
Wat does it reflect, anyway?
My holidays were boring? No, definitely not.
I'm a workaholic? No, I'm pretty lazy.
I'm lacking in prog? No, I'd only been staying home for abt 3 days.
Com'on, it's easy!
I'm simply easily satisfied and pleased! haha
Juz give me Food and Sleep... I'll be grateful to u for the rest of my life! (Nah.. out of pt)
In fact, I think I wanted the sem to start early, so that It'll end earlier.
I can't wait to go thru the whole phase of high mental & emotional tension!
I'm not a psycho freak... I juz want to get it over and done with...
The following is juz ritual to get me started for the new semester... dun hv to read on actually... unless u got lots of time.
I've came up wif a holiday timetable for myself and now, when I look at it again...
I realised I've accomplished most of the things I listed.
From Catching up wif pple to Leisure to Others...
I'd onli missed out a few...
Accomplished:
Calling pple for donations (good response but meager sum),
catching up wif yangbin (glad he returned call),
ex-colleagues (tough coordinating but made it),
attachment colleagues (it's been a yr!),
Zhi an (breakfast b4 service was a challenge),
Longxiang (Happy Birthday @ Fish & co),
Elder sis & Little Aiden (Thks 4 remembering me as Ah Yi),
2nd sis (Young @ heart, but perhaps leave behind some Japanese Culture. hee!),
Alvin's parents (Happy Birthday, thks 4 the frog leg porridge),
Lihui (Always close to the heart),
Jieming (We've hv grown up, Goodbye bro, forgotten to wish u well),
Shijie (Happy Birthday @ Parris, wif sis too),
do Clay dolls (all thks to JJ),
go for Spa + Massage (Complementary frm Sis),
Trim Hair (Jason @ Pioneer mall Kimage has superb cutting & PR skill),
Shopping (Spent a bomb-mainly on things I need though),
recap my rusty Sanfu (my 1st accomplished task!),
go for a pre-gastroscopy check-up (Waste of time & $),
come up wif TQ games timetable (one of my 1st few accomplished task),
visit to dentist (Very happy wif the service -All stains GONE!),
watch movie online (Only managed to watch one cos seldom home),
a short trip wif my family (Went Genting and shopped @ KL).
Missed out:
Meeting up wif Pri sch frens (hesitated in coordinating),
Weijie (his poor time management),
peishi (Work late tt day, then gave birth the next day -..-),
Poly Frens (someone couldn't make it @ the very last min)
Little Hazel & Rina (I was sick tt day >.<)
Exercise class (Too Lazy, let my classmate down though ;P),
go for Lentils-making class (wanna save some funds).
Oh, there are also things that happened not according to plan...
Like the whole family going to the wedding studio 4 my sis, Jap buffet after tt @ United square, Aiden's 2nd BD party, etc, etc....
Alright... tt is it....
Goodbye Holidays!!!
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Thanks
It feels good knowing that frens cares and appreciates.
I didn't expect them, but it juz happened. Thank you for all yr extra efforts & kind words.
I'm still struggling to learn all these... I'll try to be more expressive!!
Anyway, Thanks for yr extra effort in making liang teh for me, yr sms-es in showing tt u appreciate, yr small gifts, yr time in wanting to meet up, yr calls...etc.... It warms my heart.
I didn't expect them, but it juz happened. Thank you for all yr extra efforts & kind words.
I'm still struggling to learn all these... I'll try to be more expressive!!
Anyway, Thanks for yr extra effort in making liang teh for me, yr sms-es in showing tt u appreciate, yr small gifts, yr time in wanting to meet up, yr calls...etc.... It warms my heart.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Refresh
It's not tt I'm refreshed frm my holidays...
It's juz tt I've refreshed my blog....
BY MISTAKE. >..<
Dun ask me wat i've done... I hv no idea. it's juz a simple click.
anyway... It's a sign of getting old & unable to catch up wif technology. *yeah, I admit already k. dun hv to remind me by calling me aunty everytime u see me lor. T.T hee*
I dunwan to refresh my life... cos I love every single bit of my past.
I love the happy moments---> the salvation, the surprises, the jokes, the love, the companionship, the sharing, the gifts...
I love the sad moments ---> the loss, the guilt, the betrayal, the misunderstandings, the quarrels, the disappointments, the mistakes, the regrets...
I love my present, and will love my future as well....
It's all part of a masterpiece...
Our life, a great masterpiece if it's drawn by our beloved Heavenly Father.
If only we can let him hold the paint brush and stop trying to move his hands... or worse, hold the paint brush and start drawing on our own.
But even if we do, it's ok... Let Him be in-charge once again and he can creatively make it into a wonderful piece of artwork again.
Y hope that our life can be refreshed???
If it is done according to our will, our life will juz be a blank piece of paper.
Much worthless than any lousy art piece.
Dun forget that Our God has the ability to make it into a masterpiece.
A masterpiece in HIS eyes...
It's juz tt I've refreshed my blog....
BY MISTAKE. >..<
Dun ask me wat i've done... I hv no idea. it's juz a simple click.
anyway... It's a sign of getting old & unable to catch up wif technology. *yeah, I admit already k. dun hv to remind me by calling me aunty everytime u see me lor. T.T hee*
I dunwan to refresh my life... cos I love every single bit of my past.
I love the happy moments---> the salvation, the surprises, the jokes, the love, the companionship, the sharing, the gifts...
I love the sad moments ---> the loss, the guilt, the betrayal, the misunderstandings, the quarrels, the disappointments, the mistakes, the regrets...
I love my present, and will love my future as well....
It's all part of a masterpiece...
Our life, a great masterpiece if it's drawn by our beloved Heavenly Father.
If only we can let him hold the paint brush and stop trying to move his hands... or worse, hold the paint brush and start drawing on our own.
But even if we do, it's ok... Let Him be in-charge once again and he can creatively make it into a wonderful piece of artwork again.
Y hope that our life can be refreshed???
If it is done according to our will, our life will juz be a blank piece of paper.
Much worthless than any lousy art piece.
Dun forget that Our God has the ability to make it into a masterpiece.
A masterpiece in HIS eyes...
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