Gosh.. I can't sleep... This is kind of pathetic. I wanna slp, I enjoy slping...
Well, since I can't slp, and sooo many thoughts running thru my head...
Let's talk abt the force frm the dark side. Hopefully I am able to slp then.
The dark side has always been out to distract and best in disguising itself.
It seldom shows its true self, especially to children of God, as they can be easily recognize.
Once children of God r able to recognize it, they will not be distracted.
Hence, the dark side tend to disguise itself, and create a smokescreen where children of God r unable to recognize them or identify that the havoc is created by them.
Children of God start to look upon the problems as problems created by others, self, or even God instead.
Once they start focusing on the problems, they ended up distracted....
Instead of focusing on loving God, knowing God and serving God, they got engrossed in disliking/ hating others, feelings of guilt, jealousy, competing, etc...
And of cos, not only does the dark side disguise itself to create problems, they disguise itself to create 'fake happiness'...
These 'fake happiness' r in fact earthly things tt children of God were granted to enjoy.
However, it was 'fake' when children of God start focusing on them, and lose sight of God.
They may include things like Love, academic, career, sex, family...
These are Good things tt God will want to grant us, however, if we lose sight of Him, these can in turn become stumbling blocks and make us sin...
It has became a SIGNIFICANT TASK for Children of God to identify the dark side today.
They r not so easily identified anymore.
Stay alert is one thing... the other more impt thing is to Pray that our Merciful Lord have mercy on Us.
Show it to us, clear away the smokescreen.
I always believe tt it's ok to lose track a little here and there, as Everyone does....
The impt thing is WE GET BACK ON TRACK, QUICK.
* It's really frustrating hearing snores when u can't slp! Argh"
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
After an eventful week...
I'm dead tired... but I enjoyed every single bit of it!
Tues: Mum was at A&E. Aunt accompanied her cos she felt dizzy and nausea frm a fall in the afternoon. Apparently, Mum juz sprained her wrist frm the fall. Hence, she still went for her church's christmas celebration when she suddenly suffered frm dizzy spells and felt nausea. Aunt brought her there. Mum called sis cos she thought she will be home and me, bz wif church as usual. This made me felt kind of bad. Anyway, sis called me after she reach. I got to know only after TQ's rehearsal when I'm wif LJ, accompanying her deliver some goods. She kindly sent me to the hospital. Thank God it was nothing serious, juz sprains. However, the scans, ECG, cum drips took several hours... and we can only leave the hospital by 3+am. It was raining cats and dogs then... I've finished my Nissin Laksa while waiting. Uncle came to fetch us home... Hw nice. I enjoyed the hours spent wif mum and sis. I'll spent more time and not forgo family time.
Wed: Christmas eve. Celebration in church. It was funny and entertaining... but most of all, Pastor Foo's sermon was SUPERB!!! I like the light stuff, then suddenly something impactful in between. Ha... nicely built in. The courage to do the calling was encouraging too... I do hope there are pple who quietly accepted christ despite no one raised up their hands tt day. Well, I had been one of those in the past. I went home and did not stay for count down. The count down didn't seem as impt as compared to my family. My mum needs me... Well, she does not really NEED me... but rather it'll be good if I'm ard for the night.
Thur: Christmas day. Prepared for youth camp and the starting of youth camp. We dun seem to be well-prepared after being so bz wif church activities. But well, I know it'll still run smoothly despite hiccups here and there... God's grace is always sufficient. I'm not at all worried. The team bonding, Christmas dinner, Christmas celebration and angels & devils went on very well... It was ridiculously well. It was interesting to hv all the debrief after the activities. And I will nv forget running away like MAD frm all the youths who were out to get back on us. =.= It was like running away during war times, carrying a HUGE BASKET! >.<
Fri: The prev event ended late... after bathing and supper, it was like 3+4am in the morning? We got to wake at 7... Yeah... we woke up early, for breakfast, and then games, worship and sermon. Well, some fell asleep, some tried not to. But I guess something impt still manage to drill into their mind. "Stand Under" the truth and not "Under Stand" the truth. Well, 1 pt is better than nothing lah. Off we went for our day at pasir ris.. God blessed us wif good weather, wif occasional drizzle... water games ended up wif several casualties. But still, they built sand wall for nearly an hr or so! Still ask for more time! Gosh... I really wonder what's so fun abt building sand wall? Oh, Mel and I ran like MAD again escaping their water bombs! The poor boys did not run... they warned us to go first. Thk u sooo much! Well, We ran a little too early lah.. they dun even bother to chase us. The night cycling was really fun... 1st time cycling out of pasir ris park... all the way to changi Village! It was really Shiok, wif Alvin controlling the bicycle. I'm on a Double bike! haha... I guess I will not enjoy it tt much if I'm on a single bike. Oh well, Casualties again. A VERY BAD ONE! >.< While we wanted to call our CS, cos we were too tired, the super energetic youths wanted to carry on wif the game. So well, they went off for their CS HALF-DEAD. haha. We camp out at pasir ris... on cemented ground. Poor Shaoqi di di... but it was a break through ya!
Sat: Went back church. Bathing was tough cos we were so so tired. Delayed the sermon timing to let them slp more. But amazingly, no one fell asleep! Or rather, they managed to keep themselves awake! And when tested at night, they are able to tell me L=know yr Limit, I=God's Instruction, F=Fear god, E=Express Godly living... They are impressive. Amazing Race was next.. I was still wondering if they r able to finish off the race... and worried abt the morale.. They surprise me! haha... Well done youths... It simply shows tt u r able to go far... Use it wisely for God's grace. Not forgetting the testimony sharing.. It was heart warming. Those who were not planned to share, shared. It shows spiritual maturity, and courage to share about God. It is also a chance for us to share to them about our God. Oh well... BBQ was great too. ;) Thks to our TQ peeps who helped us prepare so much food! We headed back for our closing...
Sun: Service.... I was dead. I hv to confess tt I FELL ASLEEP... even during worship while standing. oh well, AL and ZL knows the classic joke. >..< It was the 1st time since dunno when's the last time tt I slept during service man... luckily I sat at the corner. May it be the last time.
After service, I rushed down to attend my cuz's wedding... Everyone was well-dressed, except me.. in glasses somemore. I really can't be bothered lah although I do feel abit out of place. I was gong gong throughout... Glad I did manage to smile and chat lah.
Went straight home to slp since choir prac was over. I was a little sad but a little happy lah. Mixed feelings. haha. Alvin brought my bag to my place cos my hp charger is in the bag. how nice of him. He was already soooo tired. Yuling called me in my dreams too... I remembered wat she said, I think I'm good. haha. But I dun really remember Alvin came... until my sis told me alvin is sleeping in the living hall's sofa. >.< It was already 8+... After having a hard time waking him up, he finally moved his butt and went hm. After my dinner and some slacking... I went back to slp again.. it was 10+ and I slept till this morning 1plus!!!
Ok... I guess I can fall asleep now after endless recalling and typing... It's juz one the way of helping me slp. Meeting up with chuandao niang and mel tmr... and also my sec sch fren at night.
Oh no.. i've grown so much darker... Sadzzz...
Tues: Mum was at A&E. Aunt accompanied her cos she felt dizzy and nausea frm a fall in the afternoon. Apparently, Mum juz sprained her wrist frm the fall. Hence, she still went for her church's christmas celebration when she suddenly suffered frm dizzy spells and felt nausea. Aunt brought her there. Mum called sis cos she thought she will be home and me, bz wif church as usual. This made me felt kind of bad. Anyway, sis called me after she reach. I got to know only after TQ's rehearsal when I'm wif LJ, accompanying her deliver some goods. She kindly sent me to the hospital. Thank God it was nothing serious, juz sprains. However, the scans, ECG, cum drips took several hours... and we can only leave the hospital by 3+am. It was raining cats and dogs then... I've finished my Nissin Laksa while waiting. Uncle came to fetch us home... Hw nice. I enjoyed the hours spent wif mum and sis. I'll spent more time and not forgo family time.
Wed: Christmas eve. Celebration in church. It was funny and entertaining... but most of all, Pastor Foo's sermon was SUPERB!!! I like the light stuff, then suddenly something impactful in between. Ha... nicely built in. The courage to do the calling was encouraging too... I do hope there are pple who quietly accepted christ despite no one raised up their hands tt day. Well, I had been one of those in the past. I went home and did not stay for count down. The count down didn't seem as impt as compared to my family. My mum needs me... Well, she does not really NEED me... but rather it'll be good if I'm ard for the night.
Thur: Christmas day. Prepared for youth camp and the starting of youth camp. We dun seem to be well-prepared after being so bz wif church activities. But well, I know it'll still run smoothly despite hiccups here and there... God's grace is always sufficient. I'm not at all worried. The team bonding, Christmas dinner, Christmas celebration and angels & devils went on very well... It was ridiculously well. It was interesting to hv all the debrief after the activities. And I will nv forget running away like MAD frm all the youths who were out to get back on us. =.= It was like running away during war times, carrying a HUGE BASKET! >.<
Fri: The prev event ended late... after bathing and supper, it was like 3+4am in the morning? We got to wake at 7... Yeah... we woke up early, for breakfast, and then games, worship and sermon. Well, some fell asleep, some tried not to. But I guess something impt still manage to drill into their mind. "Stand Under" the truth and not "Under Stand" the truth. Well, 1 pt is better than nothing lah. Off we went for our day at pasir ris.. God blessed us wif good weather, wif occasional drizzle... water games ended up wif several casualties. But still, they built sand wall for nearly an hr or so! Still ask for more time! Gosh... I really wonder what's so fun abt building sand wall? Oh, Mel and I ran like MAD again escaping their water bombs! The poor boys did not run... they warned us to go first. Thk u sooo much! Well, We ran a little too early lah.. they dun even bother to chase us. The night cycling was really fun... 1st time cycling out of pasir ris park... all the way to changi Village! It was really Shiok, wif Alvin controlling the bicycle. I'm on a Double bike! haha... I guess I will not enjoy it tt much if I'm on a single bike. Oh well, Casualties again. A VERY BAD ONE! >.< While we wanted to call our CS, cos we were too tired, the super energetic youths wanted to carry on wif the game. So well, they went off for their CS HALF-DEAD. haha. We camp out at pasir ris... on cemented ground. Poor Shaoqi di di... but it was a break through ya!
Sat: Went back church. Bathing was tough cos we were so so tired. Delayed the sermon timing to let them slp more. But amazingly, no one fell asleep! Or rather, they managed to keep themselves awake! And when tested at night, they are able to tell me L=know yr Limit, I=God's Instruction, F=Fear god, E=Express Godly living... They are impressive. Amazing Race was next.. I was still wondering if they r able to finish off the race... and worried abt the morale.. They surprise me! haha... Well done youths... It simply shows tt u r able to go far... Use it wisely for God's grace. Not forgetting the testimony sharing.. It was heart warming. Those who were not planned to share, shared. It shows spiritual maturity, and courage to share about God. It is also a chance for us to share to them about our God. Oh well... BBQ was great too. ;) Thks to our TQ peeps who helped us prepare so much food! We headed back for our closing...
Sun: Service.... I was dead. I hv to confess tt I FELL ASLEEP... even during worship while standing. oh well, AL and ZL knows the classic joke. >..< It was the 1st time since dunno when's the last time tt I slept during service man... luckily I sat at the corner. May it be the last time.
After service, I rushed down to attend my cuz's wedding... Everyone was well-dressed, except me.. in glasses somemore. I really can't be bothered lah although I do feel abit out of place. I was gong gong throughout... Glad I did manage to smile and chat lah.
Went straight home to slp since choir prac was over. I was a little sad but a little happy lah. Mixed feelings. haha. Alvin brought my bag to my place cos my hp charger is in the bag. how nice of him. He was already soooo tired. Yuling called me in my dreams too... I remembered wat she said, I think I'm good. haha. But I dun really remember Alvin came... until my sis told me alvin is sleeping in the living hall's sofa. >.< It was already 8+... After having a hard time waking him up, he finally moved his butt and went hm. After my dinner and some slacking... I went back to slp again.. it was 10+ and I slept till this morning 1plus!!!
Ok... I guess I can fall asleep now after endless recalling and typing... It's juz one the way of helping me slp. Meeting up with chuandao niang and mel tmr... and also my sec sch fren at night.
Oh no.. i've grown so much darker... Sadzzz...
Sunday, December 21, 2008
New Balance~~
There is no right or wrong...
as long as all will achieve the same goal...
and end up in the same place.
Be open minded.
It's juz the style.
But... some style does hurt alot & incur loses.
hence, choose wisely
Ponder how they will feel when u try to push for what u think is good & right for them.
Perhaps that helps them more than simply trying to achieve some goals of yours.
Oh.. He made tt mistake before.
It was chaotic.
But he had changed, Since.
And.. things juz stabilizes.
It was God's Wisdom & grace.
as long as all will achieve the same goal...
and end up in the same place.
Be open minded.
It's juz the style.
But... some style does hurt alot & incur loses.
hence, choose wisely
Ponder how they will feel when u try to push for what u think is good & right for them.
Perhaps that helps them more than simply trying to achieve some goals of yours.
Oh.. He made tt mistake before.
It was chaotic.
But he had changed, Since.
And.. things juz stabilizes.
It was God's Wisdom & grace.
Irony
It was sooooo Ironic tt I wanna laugh at myself...
I shld hv recorded wat I've said to u @ toast box and play it back to myself now.
>..<
No one but U can perform a miracle...
I shld hv recorded wat I've said to u @ toast box and play it back to myself now.
>..<
No one but U can perform a miracle...
Monday, December 15, 2008
Rest in Him
My attachment is over... and tt marks the end of my 2 3/4 yrs of studies.
The mixed feelings are there...
On one hand, i'm happy tt it's all over. On the other, I'm pretty depressed tt I've got to face the world again.
Ha ha ha. As if i'm hiding frm the world now.
Anyway, I'm resting in Him now. At the same time preparing for youth camp and my wedding.
Will find a job soon... Shan't rest too long!
Maybe.... next yr? Hee
Oh.. PTL tt the photo taking and photo selection had been a smooth process.
No rain on the day of our photo taking, with nice sunset and two photographers!
It was enjoyable and not as tiring. We even had the energy to eat steamboat after the session. hee~
Photo selection is also great! Although it's the toughest process but we managed to choose 42 photos w/o topping up!
Meaning w/o hving to pay additional money. We went there twice lah... 1st day abit noisy and distracting, wif the photographers and uncle chatting & joking wif us. The 2nd day of selection was very much peaceful, wif a nice lady helping us cutting down on the photos. No Force selling at all... No one trying to make us top up photos. haha... It was God's grace man... cos many couples will end up in a sour note wif the pple @ their bridal studio. But ours was peaceful, wif pple helping us cut photos somemore. haha!!!
Well... Let's see if I can get my momentum back.
Oh, I'm pretty sad tt my mum had to attend another church. I felt as though I hv neglected her and am being really selfish.
She's wif my aunt there... and let's see if she can get used to the church and if my aunt can truly accompany her.
If my problematic aunt's temperament acts up, I guess i'll hv no choice but to accompany her. Wat abt my sis? oh well, I think she'll follow us... but it's still up to her lah. I'm kind of stuck in btw. I'm risking two souls... but if i were to choose, I'd rather give up on my sis and secure my mum since my sis is younger and hv many more yrs of her live to help. haha. :P
U see, it's really not easy bringing yr own family to know Christ... but to me, I feel tt it's even more difficult to make them stay in the faith. Esp the older ones. For me, my job for one had finished, which I'm glad it ended well, and there's another ongoing one... not many yrs left, so I'm holding on tight.
Ok... keeping my fingers cross for now... It's not as though she is not adapting there or Alone w/o anyone she knows or does not feel like attending church anymore. I'm juz keeping my radar on, tt's all.
The mixed feelings are there...
On one hand, i'm happy tt it's all over. On the other, I'm pretty depressed tt I've got to face the world again.
Ha ha ha. As if i'm hiding frm the world now.
Anyway, I'm resting in Him now. At the same time preparing for youth camp and my wedding.
Will find a job soon... Shan't rest too long!
Maybe.... next yr? Hee
Oh.. PTL tt the photo taking and photo selection had been a smooth process.
No rain on the day of our photo taking, with nice sunset and two photographers!
It was enjoyable and not as tiring. We even had the energy to eat steamboat after the session. hee~
Photo selection is also great! Although it's the toughest process but we managed to choose 42 photos w/o topping up!
Meaning w/o hving to pay additional money. We went there twice lah... 1st day abit noisy and distracting, wif the photographers and uncle chatting & joking wif us. The 2nd day of selection was very much peaceful, wif a nice lady helping us cutting down on the photos. No Force selling at all... No one trying to make us top up photos. haha... It was God's grace man... cos many couples will end up in a sour note wif the pple @ their bridal studio. But ours was peaceful, wif pple helping us cut photos somemore. haha!!!
Well... Let's see if I can get my momentum back.
Oh, I'm pretty sad tt my mum had to attend another church. I felt as though I hv neglected her and am being really selfish.
She's wif my aunt there... and let's see if she can get used to the church and if my aunt can truly accompany her.
If my problematic aunt's temperament acts up, I guess i'll hv no choice but to accompany her. Wat abt my sis? oh well, I think she'll follow us... but it's still up to her lah. I'm kind of stuck in btw. I'm risking two souls... but if i were to choose, I'd rather give up on my sis and secure my mum since my sis is younger and hv many more yrs of her live to help. haha. :P
U see, it's really not easy bringing yr own family to know Christ... but to me, I feel tt it's even more difficult to make them stay in the faith. Esp the older ones. For me, my job for one had finished, which I'm glad it ended well, and there's another ongoing one... not many yrs left, so I'm holding on tight.
Ok... keeping my fingers cross for now... It's not as though she is not adapting there or Alone w/o anyone she knows or does not feel like attending church anymore. I'm juz keeping my radar on, tt's all.
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