The strong wind blew the carpet up...
and...
Ta-Da!
Dust underneath. :(
The unresolved will always be unresolved.
And the actions reveal it.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Blood Donation
Blood Donation!
I've resumed donating blood last week after stopping for a long long time ever since I fall sick nearly every month. Guess what? The record showed my last donation there was in the year 1999. I nearly fainted. But then, I did donate at other places lah. But that was also many many years back.
I'm Gonna make sure I'm a regular Blood Donor from last week onwards!! (since I am able to walk over from my work place to make the donation, DURING office hours. :P ) Wahaha.
I've resumed donating blood last week after stopping for a long long time ever since I fall sick nearly every month. Guess what? The record showed my last donation there was in the year 1999. I nearly fainted. But then, I did donate at other places lah. But that was also many many years back.
I'm Gonna make sure I'm a regular Blood Donor from last week onwards!! (since I am able to walk over from my work place to make the donation, DURING office hours. :P ) Wahaha.
Neighbourhood
Today, my course ended early at Clementi. So, I decided to go to my BL place, Nap for an hour or so, then leave for meeting in church. There is a sudden surge of happiness in me as I walked back home. The familiar faces of those elderly, the familiar pavements, traffic light, staircase, bus-stops, playground... everything tt I used to be so familiar with to the extend that I did not slow down my footsteps to admire, have all became so dear to me now. Alright, these are signs of getting old... but I guess it also explains the fact tt humans will only begin to appreciate when they start to lose them. Let's not make this a way of life though. Let's Appreciate what we Have. Learn to Slow Down and Admire...
The Pavement leading to the junction and train station.... it's also the pavement tt gives me lots of spiritual enlightenment during the days tt I hv to walk to the train station as early as 6.15am. Can see abit of sunrise, peaceful pavement in the early morning. Can be very therapeutic. :)
The fitness corner. Something tt my sis and I have not utilised despite much contemplation. Exercising with elderly is really not my cup of tea.
The Staircase leading to my Block.
The Pavement leading to the junction and train station.... it's also the pavement tt gives me lots of spiritual enlightenment during the days tt I hv to walk to the train station as early as 6.15am. Can see abit of sunrise, peaceful pavement in the early morning. Can be very therapeutic. :)
The fitness corner. Something tt my sis and I have not utilised despite much contemplation. Exercising with elderly is really not my cup of tea.
The Staircase leading to my Block.
Crab Feast
It has became a ritual btw my 4th sister and I to eat CRABsss during my bd month. Hee hee... I LOVE IT! Of cos it's Alvin and her treat. Oh, it's D's BD month also, and he lovesssss CRABS too. It's a BD treat for 2. This year, my mummy joined us! Yippee! I Love My Mum's presence. :)
Ooooohhh... These CRABS are HUGE.... Fleshy and Fresh!
Chilli Crab! not too spicy, so still can taste the crab, juz nice. Man Tou dip in the sauce, Wow... Bagus!
The soup is super nice! You can taste the original taste of a crab in this dish! Not covered by the flavouring of chilli, pepper, xian Dan, Butter, etc. I love this alot!
Ooooohhh... These CRABS are HUGE.... Fleshy and Fresh!
Chilli Crab! not too spicy, so still can taste the crab, juz nice. Man Tou dip in the sauce, Wow... Bagus!
The soup is super nice! You can taste the original taste of a crab in this dish! Not covered by the flavouring of chilli, pepper, xian Dan, Butter, etc. I love this alot!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
What's yr worldview?
Suicidal AGAIN.
He divorced his wife. His 2 sons and 2 daughters, all adults now, does not acknowledge him as their father. "My father has already passed away," they said. A typical response from children who hates their father. He apparently has a 12 years old daughter in Indonesia. He must have had extra marital affairs. However, he doesn't acknowledge this other women. He called her a "friend".
His natural parents are angry with him for divorcing his wife for another women. "I do not have the courage to contact them", he said. = No family support. He has no house to stay in. He stays in his workplace when he's on duty for the night. When he doesn't, he lodges at his friend's workplace. He told his friend about his suicidal tendencies, his friend told him to drown himself instead of jump. =No proper safety net from friends. Obviously, he has no money. =Financial difficulty. His one eye is blind, and his another eye has serious internal bleeding. = No health.
He has made a will to give his 12 years old daughter his CPF money. All planned, well planned. He wanted to jump at a specific place and time last week, but he does not have the courage. Today, he replied he does not know if he'll appear on the next appointment when he was asked and added that if he doesn't, it would mean tt he has committed suicide.
Qn: If you are one of the the grown-up children, will you give him the support he needed (financial and/or emotional) upon knowing his current situation, despite of his past misdeeds?
(Nope, I won't ask if you will jump if you were him :P)
For me, I guess I will, at least the minimal to keep him alive.
My col said no, but will refer him to social services. =.= tt's herself? haha. prob not lah.
He divorced his wife. His 2 sons and 2 daughters, all adults now, does not acknowledge him as their father. "My father has already passed away," they said. A typical response from children who hates their father. He apparently has a 12 years old daughter in Indonesia. He must have had extra marital affairs. However, he doesn't acknowledge this other women. He called her a "friend".
His natural parents are angry with him for divorcing his wife for another women. "I do not have the courage to contact them", he said. = No family support. He has no house to stay in. He stays in his workplace when he's on duty for the night. When he doesn't, he lodges at his friend's workplace. He told his friend about his suicidal tendencies, his friend told him to drown himself instead of jump. =No proper safety net from friends. Obviously, he has no money. =Financial difficulty. His one eye is blind, and his another eye has serious internal bleeding. = No health.
He has made a will to give his 12 years old daughter his CPF money. All planned, well planned. He wanted to jump at a specific place and time last week, but he does not have the courage. Today, he replied he does not know if he'll appear on the next appointment when he was asked and added that if he doesn't, it would mean tt he has committed suicide.
Qn: If you are one of the the grown-up children, will you give him the support he needed (financial and/or emotional) upon knowing his current situation, despite of his past misdeeds?
(Nope, I won't ask if you will jump if you were him :P)
For me, I guess I will, at least the minimal to keep him alive.
My col said no, but will refer him to social services. =.= tt's herself? haha. prob not lah.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Self-Care
*Disorganised thoughts* (Dun read if you are
Self-Care is an impt part of a helping profession.
I've been through many many modules and courses, and most of them will include this into part of the material.
But I guess, it's not easy to practice it Successfully. No wonder our lecturers will always want to cover this portion of the coursework even though it means to extend the lessons.
Well, I am totally Unprofessional. *Not referring to work. I'm professional at work one okkkkk... :P
I'm not sure if i'm wrong though... since it's really not a Job per se. Juz like wat i've recently told someone tt we can't treat it like a job. So, where does professionalism comes in here?
But at the same time, inability to practice self-care is detrimental to the well-being of those whom you are helping, thus = unprofessional.
Ah, nevermind what i'm saying. I'm dwelling on the NOT AT ALL IMPORTANT school of thoughts. Shall leave it to the scholars.
The main point is, I have been too emotionally entwined with their well-being.
When one of their live is worrying, it can keep me awake through the night. But thank God it helps when I pray to fall asleep. On the contrary, when they make improvements, I'm perked!
It is getting unhealthy for the past few days. I've got to rethink and re-position myself.
Not to worry, or perhaps Sad for You that I'm not gonna quit.... although keeping the RADAR ON 24/7 is super duper tiring... esp when hiding and lying have been a norm for the current gen. You know, Dusts under the NICE Classy Carpet. It's saddening, cos they have no courage to tell pple they've got Dusts under their carpet.
Furthermore, there are still too many outstanding issues to be addressed... I KNOW them, but I'm still waiting for the right timing, and also confidence to lift those Carpets Up.
Enough abt Carpets... haha
My tone is slowwww and draggyyyyyyy when I'm typing this.
I think I need rest. I mean Enough Sleep. Got to work tmr. Zzzzz....
Sleep well, God is in control. :)
Self-Care is an impt part of a helping profession.
I've been through many many modules and courses, and most of them will include this into part of the material.
But I guess, it's not easy to practice it Successfully. No wonder our lecturers will always want to cover this portion of the coursework even though it means to extend the lessons.
Well, I am totally Unprofessional. *Not referring to work. I'm professional at work one okkkkk... :P
I'm not sure if i'm wrong though... since it's really not a Job per se. Juz like wat i've recently told someone tt we can't treat it like a job. So, where does professionalism comes in here?
But at the same time, inability to practice self-care is detrimental to the well-being of those whom you are helping, thus = unprofessional.
Ah, nevermind what i'm saying. I'm dwelling on the NOT AT ALL IMPORTANT school of thoughts. Shall leave it to the scholars.
The main point is, I have been too emotionally entwined with their well-being.
When one of their live is worrying, it can keep me awake through the night. But thank God it helps when I pray to fall asleep. On the contrary, when they make improvements, I'm perked!
It is getting unhealthy for the past few days. I've got to rethink and re-position myself.
Not to worry, or perhaps Sad for You that I'm not gonna quit.... although keeping the RADAR ON 24/7 is super duper tiring... esp when hiding and lying have been a norm for the current gen. You know, Dusts under the NICE Classy Carpet. It's saddening, cos they have no courage to tell pple they've got Dusts under their carpet.
Furthermore, there are still too many outstanding issues to be addressed... I KNOW them, but I'm still waiting for the right timing, and also confidence to lift those Carpets Up.
Enough abt Carpets... haha
My tone is slowwww and draggyyyyyyy when I'm typing this.
I think I need rest. I mean Enough Sleep. Got to work tmr. Zzzzz....
Sleep well, God is in control. :)
Saturday, June 27, 2009
My Presentzzzz!!!
Yeah.... Can't wait to see them! XD
Gosh.. I miss the smell of tommy girl. I love it since my sec - poly days. hee...
***Can't wait to see my dearest hubby MOST of cos... haha
Whose perception
Oh... My hubby will be back soon! In 6 hrs time to be exact :)
The thought of it makes me happy although we still won't get to see each other till next sunday.
Oh, I've pasted some house rules for deary at our bedroom door... hope he follows to minimise the risk of spreading if he suay suay has AH1N1. I super kaisu... scared he spread to his folks lah. Hope the post-sticks all over his monitor comforts him a little too! haha
I'm back at my JW place. Wore mask in the Car while on my way back... Juz being socially responsible to the kind souls who drove me back upon my request. haha. Can't get to slp despite the drowsiness. Too much things to do here, perhaps. haha. The only bad thing about here is, there's not enough food. The fridge is spoilt.. Gosh.
Hmm... another thought came to my mind... (the 1st was not published... err, I chose not to publish it. heehee).
Anyway, here's the other thought...
YOU SERIOUSLY DESERVE BETTER.
I think alot of pple feel tt way too lah, and you know it too... They told u as well.
but then, whose perception weighs more? yours or others? sometimes, love juz covers all. Hence, u hear some pple say, "So be it lah. He/She loves her/him too much liao..."
maybe you know it very well too... But you chose to let Love blind you. Cos it's LOVE wat...
hmm... sometimes I feel tt pple who uses too much intellectual to analyse Love, dunno What is LOVE.
And those who dun use adequate intellectual to handle Love, dunno the Practical issues of Love.
Oh well, but where's the balance? No one can tell you exactly.
Alright... We are heading no where... it's juz thoughts ya... thoughts that hv no definite black and white answer.
Love has no black and white answer too... Tt's y i dun regret loving. cos it's not wrong loving. Juz wise or dumb. haha
However, it's worth pondering if quite a no of significant pple tell you tt you deserve better. Think and discuss abt it b4 it's too late ya!
Else you will end up having to deceive yourself to make yourself feel better. Tt is wat I'll define as Qi1 Liang2... Oh, in fact I see a lot of pple in this situation. My heart goes out to them... but can't help... sometimes I help them to deceive themselves too. It's the best way to help them I guess -.-"
The thought of it makes me happy although we still won't get to see each other till next sunday.
Oh, I've pasted some house rules for deary at our bedroom door... hope he follows to minimise the risk of spreading if he suay suay has AH1N1. I super kaisu... scared he spread to his folks lah. Hope the post-sticks all over his monitor comforts him a little too! haha
I'm back at my JW place. Wore mask in the Car while on my way back... Juz being socially responsible to the kind souls who drove me back upon my request. haha. Can't get to slp despite the drowsiness. Too much things to do here, perhaps. haha. The only bad thing about here is, there's not enough food. The fridge is spoilt.. Gosh.
Hmm... another thought came to my mind... (the 1st was not published... err, I chose not to publish it. heehee).
Anyway, here's the other thought...
YOU SERIOUSLY DESERVE BETTER.
I think alot of pple feel tt way too lah, and you know it too... They told u as well.
but then, whose perception weighs more? yours or others? sometimes, love juz covers all. Hence, u hear some pple say, "So be it lah. He/She loves her/him too much liao..."
maybe you know it very well too... But you chose to let Love blind you. Cos it's LOVE wat...
hmm... sometimes I feel tt pple who uses too much intellectual to analyse Love, dunno What is LOVE.
And those who dun use adequate intellectual to handle Love, dunno the Practical issues of Love.
Oh well, but where's the balance? No one can tell you exactly.
Alright... We are heading no where... it's juz thoughts ya... thoughts that hv no definite black and white answer.
Love has no black and white answer too... Tt's y i dun regret loving. cos it's not wrong loving. Juz wise or dumb. haha
However, it's worth pondering if quite a no of significant pple tell you tt you deserve better. Think and discuss abt it b4 it's too late ya!
Else you will end up having to deceive yourself to make yourself feel better. Tt is wat I'll define as Qi1 Liang2... Oh, in fact I see a lot of pple in this situation. My heart goes out to them... but can't help... sometimes I help them to deceive themselves too. It's the best way to help them I guess -.-"
Friday, June 26, 2009
Time flies
Gosh... It's been a week! How fast!
My hubby will be back Tmr 6am. I will be gone later...
Going back to my mum's place to avoid him for a week :X
Waiting for someone to fetch me home later upon my request. Dunno wat time though.
Anyway, I was sick since thursday. Very slight sore throat only... rather it's discomfort on the neck, then shoulder ache, then VERY bad headache... After tt felt feverish, but not caught by thermal scanner/ thermometer. Felt better after self-medication in office. Then, Extremely weak after I got home in the evening... Confirm fever in the next morning on my conventional thermometer. Reported sick on fri...
Went to a GP... The infrared sensor forehead thermometer is SOOO Inaccurate. My temp was 36.8. I was surprised but thought maybe my fever subsided. Reported my temp to my office happily. However, later, when I was in the room with the doctor, his Ear thermometer indicated 38.3. -..- Well, not my problem rite... It's their inconsistency, or rather the thermometers... His attitude really cannot make it lah. Anyway, maybe doc r now very stressed due to H1N1 lah. Nvm. Hmm.. come to think of it, I was the one who told him I got fever in the morning after he said 'no fever rite?', then he checked again. Shld appreciate my honestly mah. :P
I do not know what's my diagnosis till now... and i think the doc does not know too. No runny nose and cough confused his assessment I guess. Kept asking me abt H1N1 thingy... Probably bec his clinic is H1N1 pandemic ready, and also bec I work in a hospital setting. Everytime I told him 'not tt I know of', he will reply 'even if hv u also dunno'. Fine Fine... I very guai replied him 'YES! PRECISELY!'... -..- Think he was pretty pissed off by my reply. haha. But well, his 'attitude' face is really unforgettable too. Oh, I was given 3 days mc. Fri, Sat, Sun... but... I dun work on Sat and Sun! haha. anyway, I was supposed to stay at home lah... meaning not to expose myself to others due to the pandemic. No one is sure what I'm carrying until I develop other symptoms or until i'm well. So, i shall guai guai stay at home. The 2 clinic assistants were later called into the room... then one came out to ask me for my occupation, later the other asked me to fill up the H1N1 survey form while giving me my medication. No one in the clinic was given 'this kind' of attention. =.=
Slept like a log from thurs evening till today... Yeah, I was practically sleeping the whole day yesterday. Woke up in the late morning to see doc, and late evening to eat and take medications... then slp again.
Felt slightly better now... Awake frm 12pm till now... 3 hrs! Break record liao. haha. but then i think i need to slp again. The drowsiness is making me uncomfortable.
I have never felt sooo Weak before... Even No Energy to walk lor. Sigh. Sick with no significant symptoms somemore... Duh...
*** I finally true-ly understand the frustration of not knowing the diagnosis yet feeling Sooo Unwell. It can drive u crazy. And I know y some pple will want to try doing Insane stuff juz to seek more medical Attention. Don't scold them lah... They r desperate pple... esp when they r not old enough to understand and not so educated like you lor.
My hubby will be back Tmr 6am. I will be gone later...
Going back to my mum's place to avoid him for a week :X
Waiting for someone to fetch me home later upon my request. Dunno wat time though.
Anyway, I was sick since thursday. Very slight sore throat only... rather it's discomfort on the neck, then shoulder ache, then VERY bad headache... After tt felt feverish, but not caught by thermal scanner/ thermometer. Felt better after self-medication in office. Then, Extremely weak after I got home in the evening... Confirm fever in the next morning on my conventional thermometer. Reported sick on fri...
Went to a GP... The infrared sensor forehead thermometer is SOOO Inaccurate. My temp was 36.8. I was surprised but thought maybe my fever subsided. Reported my temp to my office happily. However, later, when I was in the room with the doctor, his Ear thermometer indicated 38.3. -..- Well, not my problem rite... It's their inconsistency, or rather the thermometers... His attitude really cannot make it lah. Anyway, maybe doc r now very stressed due to H1N1 lah. Nvm. Hmm.. come to think of it, I was the one who told him I got fever in the morning after he said 'no fever rite?', then he checked again. Shld appreciate my honestly mah. :P
I do not know what's my diagnosis till now... and i think the doc does not know too. No runny nose and cough confused his assessment I guess. Kept asking me abt H1N1 thingy... Probably bec his clinic is H1N1 pandemic ready, and also bec I work in a hospital setting. Everytime I told him 'not tt I know of', he will reply 'even if hv u also dunno'. Fine Fine... I very guai replied him 'YES! PRECISELY!'... -..- Think he was pretty pissed off by my reply. haha. But well, his 'attitude' face is really unforgettable too. Oh, I was given 3 days mc. Fri, Sat, Sun... but... I dun work on Sat and Sun! haha. anyway, I was supposed to stay at home lah... meaning not to expose myself to others due to the pandemic. No one is sure what I'm carrying until I develop other symptoms or until i'm well. So, i shall guai guai stay at home. The 2 clinic assistants were later called into the room... then one came out to ask me for my occupation, later the other asked me to fill up the H1N1 survey form while giving me my medication. No one in the clinic was given 'this kind' of attention. =.=
Slept like a log from thurs evening till today... Yeah, I was practically sleeping the whole day yesterday. Woke up in the late morning to see doc, and late evening to eat and take medications... then slp again.
Felt slightly better now... Awake frm 12pm till now... 3 hrs! Break record liao. haha. but then i think i need to slp again. The drowsiness is making me uncomfortable.
I have never felt sooo Weak before... Even No Energy to walk lor. Sigh. Sick with no significant symptoms somemore... Duh...
*** I finally true-ly understand the frustration of not knowing the diagnosis yet feeling Sooo Unwell. It can drive u crazy. And I know y some pple will want to try doing Insane stuff juz to seek more medical Attention. Don't scold them lah... They r desperate pple... esp when they r not old enough to understand and not so educated like you lor.
Monday, June 22, 2009
No Chance for Nap Nap
Gosh... 2 suicidal cases in a row. It was super draining. But I guess I do enjoy what I'm doing.
Have been seeing patients one after another today. I end up not drinking enough cos I dun even hv a chance to leave my room to refill my bottle. Not good... cos My throat is not doing well. Afternoon is a little better cos I get to drink... but... I end up having to hold my bladder. -..- Hmmm... I realised I've been doing too much of tt lately. Can feel that my bladder muscles is weakening!
I'm having an headache... not due to workload though. As you can see, I got a chance to blog in office now. :P Rather, it's bec I have to wear a mask! I'm only away from work for 4 day lor... apparently, they started the mask procedure right after the day I went on leave. Hopefully I'll get used to it. And i do Pray that they won't want us to wear the N95 mask.
Oh... it's not completely negative for the 1st day of work after a long break. I've got Performance Bonus! Praise the Lord! haha. Well, it's pro-rated... but still, it's seriously like God giving me money... err, maybe money drop from heaven is easier to understand. Anyway, I didn't expect myself to get any bonus cos I'm still on probation. I've not done any appraisal yet (hmm... hw did they give me that rating siah?) Somemore, the financial year's cut off is somewhere the time I joined. Wahaha. Soooo happy even though I'll only received half of them upon confirmation and half in december, together with my 13th mth. Gosh... I still got bonus in times like this... Really wanna Thank God for the blessing!
Have been seeing patients one after another today. I end up not drinking enough cos I dun even hv a chance to leave my room to refill my bottle. Not good... cos My throat is not doing well. Afternoon is a little better cos I get to drink... but... I end up having to hold my bladder. -..- Hmmm... I realised I've been doing too much of tt lately. Can feel that my bladder muscles is weakening!
I'm having an headache... not due to workload though. As you can see, I got a chance to blog in office now. :P Rather, it's bec I have to wear a mask! I'm only away from work for 4 day lor... apparently, they started the mask procedure right after the day I went on leave. Hopefully I'll get used to it. And i do Pray that they won't want us to wear the N95 mask.
Oh... it's not completely negative for the 1st day of work after a long break. I've got Performance Bonus! Praise the Lord! haha. Well, it's pro-rated... but still, it's seriously like God giving me money... err, maybe money drop from heaven is easier to understand. Anyway, I didn't expect myself to get any bonus cos I'm still on probation. I've not done any appraisal yet (hmm... hw did they give me that rating siah?) Somemore, the financial year's cut off is somewhere the time I joined. Wahaha. Soooo happy even though I'll only received half of them upon confirmation and half in december, together with my 13th mth. Gosh... I still got bonus in times like this... Really wanna Thank God for the blessing!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
My Work Station
I'm kind of bz these days... but apparently, I just dun hv the mood to work now.
So, I played with my phone, and transferred images to my pc... hence... show casing my work station below. haha
What a nice gold plated name display. It somehow looks kind of BIG in the office.
My well-furnished room, with super good privacy, can close sliding door also. It's of cos the place where my patients weeped, scream, scold...
So, I played with my phone, and transferred images to my pc... hence... show casing my work station below. haha
What a nice gold plated name display. It somehow looks kind of BIG in the office.
My well-furnished room, with super good privacy, can close sliding door also. It's of cos the place where my patients weeped, scream, scold...
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Called to do it... JUST DO IT
Lord, teach me to do what I'm called to do with a willing and cheerful heart.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Considerations
Alrighty...
Check: Has everything sinked in? Yes
Emotionally stable? Yes
Rationale? Yes
Great. Good time to ponder.
I've been bumping into pple's personal life account. There's a kind of guilt which made me wonder if i shld read. Bec, well, it was meant to be kept confidential i guess.
but... hmm.. I read lah since I was given to read, or perhaps it's good to know, or perhaps pple thought it might help in some way.
Hmm... Thanks, it does help. But sometimes, I rather not read so tt I don't know. haha. I know I'm contradicting myself. I want to know, cos I'm curious of what's really going on in those small minds, or maybe I OUGHT TO KNOW so tt I can work out my strategy better, but then... reading them does make me trip to a great extend, if not stumble.
I can only rate those readings as "Good to know" as of now. But the recent one was.... err... "Rather not know". haha.
I'll just 'hibernate' my emotions for the time being i guess. I've learnt too much of that for the past 7 years... I wonder if it's going to rebound and hit me hard one day. But too bad, I really got to let it remain as it is. Call me 'Emotionless', ya, JJ? haha, but I think the name 'Weakling' suits me better. :P It's not something which I can handle well now. I will think about it, but not react to it, can? Too many things to be taken into considerations. For the sake of the pple who will be affected by my well-being, the pple who are waiting for me to be there to help, the pple who are watching hw I'll react to this, and most importantly, the pple who are waiting for me to save, I HAVE TO pluck up my courage to Move On. I NEED TO and I HAVE TO. Hey! That's Bravery in me -1 pt scored! :D
15 mins ago...
*God really has a great sense of humour even in consolations. Thks for the recognition, lord.
Check: Has everything sinked in? Yes
Emotionally stable? Yes
Rationale? Yes
Great. Good time to ponder.
I've been bumping into pple's personal life account. There's a kind of guilt which made me wonder if i shld read. Bec, well, it was meant to be kept confidential i guess.
but... hmm.. I read lah since I was given to read, or perhaps it's good to know, or perhaps pple thought it might help in some way.
Hmm... Thanks, it does help. But sometimes, I rather not read so tt I don't know. haha. I know I'm contradicting myself. I want to know, cos I'm curious of what's really going on in those small minds, or maybe I OUGHT TO KNOW so tt I can work out my strategy better, but then... reading them does make me trip to a great extend, if not stumble.
I can only rate those readings as "Good to know" as of now. But the recent one was.... err... "Rather not know". haha.
I'll just 'hibernate' my emotions for the time being i guess. I've learnt too much of that for the past 7 years... I wonder if it's going to rebound and hit me hard one day. But too bad, I really got to let it remain as it is. Call me 'Emotionless', ya, JJ? haha, but I think the name 'Weakling' suits me better. :P It's not something which I can handle well now. I will think about it, but not react to it, can? Too many things to be taken into considerations. For the sake of the pple who will be affected by my well-being, the pple who are waiting for me to be there to help, the pple who are watching hw I'll react to this, and most importantly, the pple who are waiting for me to save, I HAVE TO pluck up my courage to Move On. I NEED TO and I HAVE TO. Hey! That's Bravery in me -1 pt scored! :D
15 mins ago...
*God really has a great sense of humour even in consolations. Thks for the recognition, lord.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Half day MC
I'm down with flu since yesterday morning. I was attending church with my mum and was sniffing all the way thinking tt it was my usual sinuses. But nope, it didn't go away. I quickly popped an antihistamine, but well, it was too late. The drowsiness sets in, my shoulder and neck aches...... Zoom! I was on my bed AT mum's place frm 12.30pm to 5.30pm.
The running nose didn't spare me till today. It was kind of under control though. All staff has to report sick at staff clinic... So, I travelled all the way down to workplace, just to report sick and get an mc. Monday morning... LONG QUEUE. From Triage to waiting area to collection of medicines... it took me close to 4 hrs. The waiting time turns me off frm being sick.
In fact, I wanna knock my head against the wall or maybe strangle myself. I didn't recognise my own Name, and hence missing my turn. This MO's pronunciation is so bad tt I didn't realise tt he is calling for me. Well Done...
It was not too long till I get to see the doc after they know tt I was actually ard... but the pharmacy was slow due to shortage of staff. When my name was called and i thought it was my turn to collect my medicine, the pharmacist told me they dun carry the medicines prescribed to me here. =.= So I got to walk to SGH's pharmacy to take queue no and hope tt they hv my medicine. Another hr gone...
Luckily I'm not THAT sick... If not, I think I would hv cried. haha
Oh yah, it was noon by then... Just a Half Day MC. No wonder the doctor asked if i want today or tmr's MC. But then, I am still on probation. No MC for me, It's considered my leave. T.T
The running nose didn't spare me till today. It was kind of under control though. All staff has to report sick at staff clinic... So, I travelled all the way down to workplace, just to report sick and get an mc. Monday morning... LONG QUEUE. From Triage to waiting area to collection of medicines... it took me close to 4 hrs. The waiting time turns me off frm being sick.
In fact, I wanna knock my head against the wall or maybe strangle myself. I didn't recognise my own Name, and hence missing my turn. This MO's pronunciation is so bad tt I didn't realise tt he is calling for me. Well Done...
It was not too long till I get to see the doc after they know tt I was actually ard... but the pharmacy was slow due to shortage of staff. When my name was called and i thought it was my turn to collect my medicine, the pharmacist told me they dun carry the medicines prescribed to me here. =.= So I got to walk to SGH's pharmacy to take queue no and hope tt they hv my medicine. Another hr gone...
Luckily I'm not THAT sick... If not, I think I would hv cried. haha
Oh yah, it was noon by then... Just a Half Day MC. No wonder the doctor asked if i want today or tmr's MC. But then, I am still on probation. No MC for me, It's considered my leave. T.T
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Leave Freeze
This is bad... Our leave are freezed since Monday. Those who took leave last monday were asked to report to work. Those who are sick, were also asked to report sick at Staff Clinic. Sick also must crawl back to see doc at staff clinic......
Well, it's not a good time to fall sick. But my body's aching.
Anyway, hope tt things will be better by June. Else there goes my long approved leave for church camp. Sigh.
Failed badly for Kimberly mask fitting today. This ducky mask not good lor... Small is too small for me, regular is too big for me. The bitterness still lingers at the back of my throat... moreover, my lips are stained with the bitter medicine! Wouldn't wanna lick my lips for the time being. haha
Going for flu jab this fri... Zzzz....
Alright, I'm bored at work. Oh... my colleague may join us for the night cycling next week! Dunno if i'm be able to drag her for the bbq... hmmm...
Well, it's not a good time to fall sick. But my body's aching.
Anyway, hope tt things will be better by June. Else there goes my long approved leave for church camp. Sigh.
Failed badly for Kimberly mask fitting today. This ducky mask not good lor... Small is too small for me, regular is too big for me. The bitterness still lingers at the back of my throat... moreover, my lips are stained with the bitter medicine! Wouldn't wanna lick my lips for the time being. haha
Going for flu jab this fri... Zzzz....
Alright, I'm bored at work. Oh... my colleague may join us for the night cycling next week! Dunno if i'm be able to drag her for the bbq... hmmm...
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Oxygen appreciation lesson
Gosh... Thermal Scanners are Up, All exits are shut other than the main entrance, and we r all Masked up in N95 -a more protected masks as compared to the normal surgical mask tt u often see.
I can't breathe properly... I need FRESH AIR! I was panting when I talked to my patients... I can't hear my colleagues correctly. I was dragged to learn hw to make announcements b4 my breakfast. :( I'm so so sad... (oh, I wonder if i sound like those MRT announcers.) And the worse thing is, I've got marks on my face caused by the tight fitted mask. That is ugly! Anyway, luckily I got prata for breakfast to make me happy today. Hmmm.. there goes my last night's swimming effort.
It's time to see a doctor and stock up my nasonex for my nose, and purple asthmatic puffs for my lungs.
"God, have mercy on the pple ard the world, and be with ALL of us..."
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CNA news update:
The Ministry of Health (MOH) has elevated Singapore's alert level from "green" to "yellow" to guard against swine flu.
It said this is to better brace the country to handle situations where there may be isolated imported cases but no sustained local transmission.
MOH said: "The World Health Organisation had raised the pandemic alert phase for the swine flu outbreaks from Phase 3 to Phase 4. The change to a higher phase indicates that there is sustained human-to-human transmission, capable of causing community-level outbreaks.
I can't breathe properly... I need FRESH AIR! I was panting when I talked to my patients... I can't hear my colleagues correctly. I was dragged to learn hw to make announcements b4 my breakfast. :( I'm so so sad... (oh, I wonder if i sound like those MRT announcers.) And the worse thing is, I've got marks on my face caused by the tight fitted mask. That is ugly! Anyway, luckily I got prata for breakfast to make me happy today. Hmmm.. there goes my last night's swimming effort.
It's time to see a doctor and stock up my nasonex for my nose, and purple asthmatic puffs for my lungs.
"God, have mercy on the pple ard the world, and be with ALL of us..."
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CNA news update:
The Ministry of Health (MOH) has elevated Singapore's alert level from "green" to "yellow" to guard against swine flu.
It said this is to better brace the country to handle situations where there may be isolated imported cases but no sustained local transmission.
MOH said: "The World Health Organisation had raised the pandemic alert phase for the swine flu outbreaks from Phase 3 to Phase 4. The change to a higher phase indicates that there is sustained human-to-human transmission, capable of causing community-level outbreaks.
Monday, April 27, 2009
May 'YOU' be put under control
Let the swine flu be under control so tt less pple will die w/o salvation and less families/friends suffer frm the loss.
And... I dun wanna be mask up! Hmm, wat a self-centred pt of view. But i seriously can't breathe under the mask. Somemore, if there's confirm cases in S'pore, I'll hv to suffocate under tt full PPE (personal protective equipment). Perhaps I'll die of asthma attack rather than swine flu. Ha! Anyway, it's only performing hand hygiene after seeing every patient at the moment. I simply need more supplies of hand mosturizers for now. Anyone? haha. Hmm... my colleague was asked to station at the triage next week, under tt mask. Oh no, I think I'll be the next if the situation dun improve! Gosh..... T.T. Juz got a bad news. I was sabotaged by my boss to make announcement to the whole eye centre!!! Can't they just record the previous announcements? Dun hv to change pple to announce rite? Hw many more pple can they rotate if this is going to last for months??? Gosh. I dun wannnnn.......
The human swine flu development is ticking like a bomb. No one knows what will happen next. No one can predict the seriousness of the situation for the next second. It was still Green to pre-yellow alert this morning during briefing. At 10am, it was yellow. -.- Triage was set up at all exits, and patients jammed up there to be screened since yesterday. But i guess we can't help it cos there were a sudden 2 suspect cases. It best to be vigilant after the SARS epidemic. And this time round, it will be very much worse off.
"What’s worrying is that the new swine flu strain could spread faster and is harder to detect compared to the SARS (Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome) virus, which caused an epidemic in 2003."
For SARS, however, the person becomes infectious much later, a few days after the onset of fever.
If it (swine flu) gathers momentum and proves to be very effective in human—to—human transmission and it follows some of the very common characteristics of the influenza virus, then yes, the spread from human to human is much more efficient in influenza as compared to SARS." -CNA
Mmm... since I or rather We can't do very much to stop or prevent the epidemic, shall we put our hands together and pray? Shall we quit procratinating and spread the gospel to our family/relatives/friends? I guess facing swine flu isn't as scary as facing death without salvation.
And... I dun wanna be mask up! Hmm, wat a self-centred pt of view. But i seriously can't breathe under the mask. Somemore, if there's confirm cases in S'pore, I'll hv to suffocate under tt full PPE (personal protective equipment). Perhaps I'll die of asthma attack rather than swine flu. Ha! Anyway, it's only performing hand hygiene after seeing every patient at the moment. I simply need more supplies of hand mosturizers for now. Anyone? haha. Hmm... my colleague was asked to station at the triage next week, under tt mask. Oh no, I think I'll be the next if the situation dun improve! Gosh..... T.T. Juz got a bad news. I was sabotaged by my boss to make announcement to the whole eye centre!!! Can't they just record the previous announcements? Dun hv to change pple to announce rite? Hw many more pple can they rotate if this is going to last for months??? Gosh. I dun wannnnn.......
The human swine flu development is ticking like a bomb. No one knows what will happen next. No one can predict the seriousness of the situation for the next second. It was still Green to pre-yellow alert this morning during briefing. At 10am, it was yellow. -.- Triage was set up at all exits, and patients jammed up there to be screened since yesterday. But i guess we can't help it cos there were a sudden 2 suspect cases. It best to be vigilant after the SARS epidemic. And this time round, it will be very much worse off.
"What’s worrying is that the new swine flu strain could spread faster and is harder to detect compared to the SARS (Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome) virus, which caused an epidemic in 2003."
For SARS, however, the person becomes infectious much later, a few days after the onset of fever.
If it (swine flu) gathers momentum and proves to be very effective in human—to—human transmission and it follows some of the very common characteristics of the influenza virus, then yes, the spread from human to human is much more efficient in influenza as compared to SARS." -CNA
Mmm... since I or rather We can't do very much to stop or prevent the epidemic, shall we put our hands together and pray? Shall we quit procratinating and spread the gospel to our family/relatives/friends? I guess facing swine flu isn't as scary as facing death without salvation.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
i LOVE mrt
---> A FREAKISH storm with strong winds uprooted trees, damaged cars and left a trail of destruction on Wednesday night, all within about 15 minutes.
There were numerous reports of fallen trees island-wide, with at least one car damaged by the falling branches in an open carpark. At a housing estate in Dover Road, a large tree almost snapped in half and lay fallen on its side, with other branches strewn across the grassy area.
Eyewitnesses also reported that large plastic barricades used in roadworks were blown across a road by the strong winds, causing traffic obstruction.
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And the worse thing is, I was caught in the 'double Jam' --> morning jam cum traffic obstruction (fallen treessss).
LATE for work!!! Argh.
Furthermore, the taxi-driver was as irritating as the jam.
"Miss, u die liao, U die liao. Confirm Sure late one. U dun believe me, u see. Later sure Jam frm XXX to XXX. There's no way u can avoid. Confirm later than u take MRT. U dun believe, u see for yrself. tsk tsk tsk. Ke2 Shi4 ni3 Can3, Wo3 men2 jiu4 hao3 lor."
>..< OH man Uncle! Give me a break, PLSSssss.........
There were numerous reports of fallen trees island-wide, with at least one car damaged by the falling branches in an open carpark. At a housing estate in Dover Road, a large tree almost snapped in half and lay fallen on its side, with other branches strewn across the grassy area.
Eyewitnesses also reported that large plastic barricades used in roadworks were blown across a road by the strong winds, causing traffic obstruction.
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And the worse thing is, I was caught in the 'double Jam' --> morning jam cum traffic obstruction (fallen treessss).
LATE for work!!! Argh.
Furthermore, the taxi-driver was as irritating as the jam.
"Miss, u die liao, U die liao. Confirm Sure late one. U dun believe me, u see. Later sure Jam frm XXX to XXX. There's no way u can avoid. Confirm later than u take MRT. U dun believe, u see for yrself. tsk tsk tsk. Ke2 Shi4 ni3 Can3, Wo3 men2 jiu4 hao3 lor."
>..< OH man Uncle! Give me a break, PLSSssss.........
Monday, April 20, 2009
Happy 1st Month Anniversary
It has been our practise to celebrate our Monthly anniversaries since 5-6 yrs ago. That was of cos during our courtship, and that was when the KFC gaga started (but not practising tt anymore for health and preference reason). Oh Yes, it was as simple as KFC. Simple, yet satisfying. We do miss out some actual day celebration here and there, but I appreciate the made up celebrations and even the simple smses. As u begin to guess, I shall confess. I'm usually the one who forgets. -.- Awww, I'm guilty of my forgetfulness. I'm so glad I have a good memory and romantic partner. :P
Oh well, since 21st Mar 09, our date for celebration shifted one week earlier and our 'XX' mth, refreshed. It's kind of weird. But it's ok. It's juz a matter of getting used to it. hmm... He's bringing me to some place where we haven't try b4 for dinner today. Cool... Well, Next mth will be my turn. He wanted Ms Clarity? hmmm... It's girlish, I told him. But seems like he wanted to go. Oh well...
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I was pretty much involved in other's r/n during these period of time. Sort of a spiritual companion cum counseling work. I enjoy this kind of work, esp when I'm serving together with hubby. :) Different pt of views r good, as there's no such thing as one-size fits all thingy. The best thing is, we discuss abt them, and not quarrel over them. I guess the enjoyment in it is really seeing pple being empowered to hold on to God, to His truth, to their faith and hv hope in Him -despite that the situation may seem bleak, may not improve and even to the extend of having to make some devastating and hard to make decision.
I believe there's a lot to learn in counseling. I see myself learning 4ever, but to ALL who will be or who is offering some kind of a counseling to others (incl small talks), I urge u to TAKE HEART in not killing esteem, force down decisions (as in literally), and be non-judgmental. At the end of the day, we all want to see them willing and having peace in the Correct actions to take. We all want them to feel better after sharing and to feel empowered to make those changes (doesn't mean no scolding though. Scolding and being blunt at the right situation and timing is part of the skill to learn ;P). Also, Decision making process shld be shared and discussed, and not forced down (doesn't mean no offering of suggestion, just taking the hassle to ask & analyse hw exactly they feel and what they want; explaining and discussing the pros & cons of all ideas, point to them the right direction; and empower them to move towards it). I guess we do not only want them to do the right thing in this incident. I believe we also hope tt they can gain some skill for future problem solving, and making Godly decisions.
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Ah... why did i side track so much? Perhaps working and blogging at the same time is not a good idea. haha. I spent the whole day blogging abt this. >.<
I wanted to talk abt the beautifully imperfect campaign which is more relevant to my title topic de. hmmm.... Oh well... Tonight, perhaps.
Oh well, since 21st Mar 09, our date for celebration shifted one week earlier and our 'XX' mth, refreshed. It's kind of weird. But it's ok. It's juz a matter of getting used to it. hmm... He's bringing me to some place where we haven't try b4 for dinner today. Cool... Well, Next mth will be my turn. He wanted Ms Clarity? hmmm... It's girlish, I told him. But seems like he wanted to go. Oh well...
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I was pretty much involved in other's r/n during these period of time. Sort of a spiritual companion cum counseling work. I enjoy this kind of work, esp when I'm serving together with hubby. :) Different pt of views r good, as there's no such thing as one-size fits all thingy. The best thing is, we discuss abt them, and not quarrel over them. I guess the enjoyment in it is really seeing pple being empowered to hold on to God, to His truth, to their faith and hv hope in Him -despite that the situation may seem bleak, may not improve and even to the extend of having to make some devastating and hard to make decision.
I believe there's a lot to learn in counseling. I see myself learning 4ever, but to ALL who will be or who is offering some kind of a counseling to others (incl small talks), I urge u to TAKE HEART in not killing esteem, force down decisions (as in literally), and be non-judgmental. At the end of the day, we all want to see them willing and having peace in the Correct actions to take. We all want them to feel better after sharing and to feel empowered to make those changes (doesn't mean no scolding though. Scolding and being blunt at the right situation and timing is part of the skill to learn ;P). Also, Decision making process shld be shared and discussed, and not forced down (doesn't mean no offering of suggestion, just taking the hassle to ask & analyse hw exactly they feel and what they want; explaining and discussing the pros & cons of all ideas, point to them the right direction; and empower them to move towards it). I guess we do not only want them to do the right thing in this incident. I believe we also hope tt they can gain some skill for future problem solving, and making Godly decisions.
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Ah... why did i side track so much? Perhaps working and blogging at the same time is not a good idea. haha. I spent the whole day blogging abt this. >.<
I wanted to talk abt the beautifully imperfect campaign which is more relevant to my title topic de. hmmm.... Oh well... Tonight, perhaps.
Monday, April 6, 2009
Thank You
Many thanks to...
My ever loving, faithful heavenly Father.
When I look at my past, I wanna Thank You wholeheartedly.
When I look at my present, I jump in Joy & Praise you for yr awesomeness.
When I peep at my future, I wanna pour out my heart to express my heartfelt Thanks.
Thank you for granting me the peace and faith.
and yes, I enjoy being Mrs Koh, for Mr Koh is an amazing Godly Young Man. :)
My ever loving, faithful heavenly Father.
When I look at my past, I wanna Thank You wholeheartedly.
When I look at my present, I jump in Joy & Praise you for yr awesomeness.
When I peep at my future, I wanna pour out my heart to express my heartfelt Thanks.
Thank you for granting me the peace and faith.
and yes, I enjoy being Mrs Koh, for Mr Koh is an amazing Godly Young Man. :)
Monday, March 16, 2009
Heart Attacks & ???
"More heart attacks occur on Monday than on any other day."
That's an interesting finding that I read frm somewhere. Dunno if it's true.
Due to Monday Blues? Or Post-weekend syndrome?
Whatever it is, we shld look forward to Everyday! Moreover, We do not know if we will get to see the world again the next morning.
Talking abt this, I guess I do have regrets. Juz One, hmmm, or maybe two.
(since when hv i broken my own record. How sad.)
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I'm at work. Spent the whole morning typing this little paragraph >.< as I got patients popping in to see me as an when.
What i get this morning?? The extremes.
The Very rich, and the Very Poor.
Will there be a day when there's no gap? I doubt so. But at least close up a little?
And for the rich, can u pls STOP complaining abt the service and the crowd for the subsidised?
And for tt 18 yrs old young lady, can u pls show a little more respect for the poor and elderly, instead of feeling disgusted abt having to sit with them while waiting to see the doc? U r simply rich bec yr parents are rich. What makes u so High-Class? Sigh. Youngsters nowadays r so... *tsk tsk tsk, Shake head*
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That's an interesting finding that I read frm somewhere. Dunno if it's true.
Due to Monday Blues? Or Post-weekend syndrome?
Whatever it is, we shld look forward to Everyday! Moreover, We do not know if we will get to see the world again the next morning.
Talking abt this, I guess I do have regrets. Juz One, hmmm, or maybe two.
(since when hv i broken my own record. How sad.)
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I'm at work. Spent the whole morning typing this little paragraph >.< as I got patients popping in to see me as an when.
What i get this morning?? The extremes.
The Very rich, and the Very Poor.
Will there be a day when there's no gap? I doubt so. But at least close up a little?
And for the rich, can u pls STOP complaining abt the service and the crowd for the subsidised?
And for tt 18 yrs old young lady, can u pls show a little more respect for the poor and elderly, instead of feeling disgusted abt having to sit with them while waiting to see the doc? U r simply rich bec yr parents are rich. What makes u so High-Class? Sigh. Youngsters nowadays r so... *tsk tsk tsk, Shake head*
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The RIGHT Language
Use the RIGHT language... that's an Impt lesson to learn.
I've been wondering if there is a way to reject patients yet they will not be Angry with us.
Perhaps still angry, but at least not with us, and they are able to Understand the rationale.
I'm pretty happy with my performance today. :)
I rejected a few patients Beautifully. haha.
Nope, my job is not to Reject. But tt's part of my job also.
Anyway, Thank God for the Wisdom and gift for today.
I do hope I am able to sustain and not forget the importance of it after some time.
It made me ponder abt our daily lives when we communicate with others too.
Sometimes, we wanted to bring something out to someone with good intentions, but it's something tt the other party will not readily accept/ happy abt.
I guess the Tatic to do it is perhaps also Using the Right Language.
My Language here is not abt Eng/Chin/dialect....
I meant the words use, the tone, the way we put it across.
According to the other party's understanding, maturity, 'soft-spot', etc...
All I can say is... It's an ART.
It's an ART tt ALL shld learn.
It does not only help us achieve wat we want which of cos is also wat we deem as Good, it's also an impt GIFT to the other party.
Rather than forcing it down their throat, Coax them to open their mouth to swallow the Bitter medicine.
Let them see the reason to do so.
They will be thankful at the end of the day, rather than leaving them feeling bitter.
It either Build or Destroy a person.
I'm guilty of it, be it aware or unaware.
I've been learning, since.
I hope I am always so sensitive.
I hope I am able to sustain.
God help me. (us?)
I've been wondering if there is a way to reject patients yet they will not be Angry with us.
Perhaps still angry, but at least not with us, and they are able to Understand the rationale.
I'm pretty happy with my performance today. :)
I rejected a few patients Beautifully. haha.
Nope, my job is not to Reject. But tt's part of my job also.
Anyway, Thank God for the Wisdom and gift for today.
I do hope I am able to sustain and not forget the importance of it after some time.
It made me ponder abt our daily lives when we communicate with others too.
Sometimes, we wanted to bring something out to someone with good intentions, but it's something tt the other party will not readily accept/ happy abt.
I guess the Tatic to do it is perhaps also Using the Right Language.
My Language here is not abt Eng/Chin/dialect....
I meant the words use, the tone, the way we put it across.
According to the other party's understanding, maturity, 'soft-spot', etc...
All I can say is... It's an ART.
It's an ART tt ALL shld learn.
It does not only help us achieve wat we want which of cos is also wat we deem as Good, it's also an impt GIFT to the other party.
Rather than forcing it down their throat, Coax them to open their mouth to swallow the Bitter medicine.
Let them see the reason to do so.
They will be thankful at the end of the day, rather than leaving them feeling bitter.
It either Build or Destroy a person.
I'm guilty of it, be it aware or unaware.
I've been learning, since.
I hope I am always so sensitive.
I hope I am able to sustain.
God help me. (us?)
Friday, March 6, 2009
Struggling pple
I've been seeing patients with Real and Unreal problems everyday.
My job is to empower them... All of them... in any way that is BEST for them. So, sometimes, I dun offer them any help.
It's really All Up To my own Discretion. *But of cos according to standard policies. I pray for wisdom. I pray tt I do tt everyday.
There are lots of pple struggling everyday. When they come into the system to receive help, they are already in a very bad state. Sometimes I do wonder if they are cursed. Frm the oldest till the youngest, none escape illness. NONE.
Everyday, I sit in my office listening to each of them unfolding their stories.
It made me realise that everyone do hv a story to tell. But are we aware of it? Do we take for granted that pple around us are FINE? Did we allow them to TELL us their story? Did we jump into conclusion, assuming that we KNOW their story?
I guess it's a reminder for myself to STOP and LOOK at familiar faces who are yearning to be heard or perhaps even shouting for help... and of cos to ASK and LISTEN.
Suddenly, I remembered that I've got a long overdue mission to accomplish.
It is ridiculous if I dun attend to it.
I may even regret for the rest of my life.
My job is to empower them... All of them... in any way that is BEST for them. So, sometimes, I dun offer them any help.
It's really All Up To my own Discretion. *But of cos according to standard policies. I pray for wisdom. I pray tt I do tt everyday.
There are lots of pple struggling everyday. When they come into the system to receive help, they are already in a very bad state. Sometimes I do wonder if they are cursed. Frm the oldest till the youngest, none escape illness. NONE.
Everyday, I sit in my office listening to each of them unfolding their stories.
It made me realise that everyone do hv a story to tell. But are we aware of it? Do we take for granted that pple around us are FINE? Did we allow them to TELL us their story? Did we jump into conclusion, assuming that we KNOW their story?
I guess it's a reminder for myself to STOP and LOOK at familiar faces who are yearning to be heard or perhaps even shouting for help... and of cos to ASK and LISTEN.
Suddenly, I remembered that I've got a long overdue mission to accomplish.
It is ridiculous if I dun attend to it.
I may even regret for the rest of my life.
How many took the Correct Van
Seeing a corpse/ standing beside one a few times a week has became part and parcel of my life.
I nearly kicked unto one in the metal casing yesterday morning. The attendants were as shock as me. >.<
Many looked away when they saw it. We were all a few minutes 'late' cos we had to let it take the lift first. It was the right way to do of cos... we were at the mortuary.
The car park is usually filled with vans frm different casket of different believes. There was once I saw vans of different major religion. I would hv taken a pic if i have a good camera.
The thought tt ran through my mind was, "How many of these souls actually belong to God?"
I nearly kicked unto one in the metal casing yesterday morning. The attendants were as shock as me. >.<
Many looked away when they saw it. We were all a few minutes 'late' cos we had to let it take the lift first. It was the right way to do of cos... we were at the mortuary.
The car park is usually filled with vans frm different casket of different believes. There was once I saw vans of different major religion. I would hv taken a pic if i have a good camera.
The thought tt ran through my mind was, "How many of these souls actually belong to God?"
Friday, February 13, 2009
I'm getting old
I've been talking abt my past to my lunch khaki. In fact, I've related them to another fren of mine a mth ago.
I enjoy doing so... and yes, it's a sign of me getting old. -.-
But who cares?
I am able to testify God who has done great things for me and my family!
I shared the good and glorifying moments, and of cos the bad and dishonorable times...
I told how God blessed and prosper those who obey, and also how He forgives and guide when we lost sight of Him.
I like the feeling of happiness in my heart after sharing. Our God is magnified, glorified and remembered -by me.
His blessings r not being forgotten, but were counted, appreciated and retold.
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I'm juz pretty happy wif myself for being Myself who is the SAME infront of God and everyone else.
I'm not afraid to face my past, and is able to reminisce every single bit of those moments.
I've not done everything tt's pleasing to God, neither have I done everything tt's according to God's will, of cos...
However, I know tt Those were the PAST, the PAST tt I've left at the feet of Jesus, forgiven and straightened out.
Hence, I'm able to share them, so tt I can tell pple how God had helped made my paths straight!
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To those who hv mentioned tt they r ashamed when they think of their past,
"You Dun hv to if u leave them at the feet of Jesus."
I enjoy doing so... and yes, it's a sign of me getting old. -.-
But who cares?
I am able to testify God who has done great things for me and my family!
I shared the good and glorifying moments, and of cos the bad and dishonorable times...
I told how God blessed and prosper those who obey, and also how He forgives and guide when we lost sight of Him.
I like the feeling of happiness in my heart after sharing. Our God is magnified, glorified and remembered -by me.
His blessings r not being forgotten, but were counted, appreciated and retold.
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I'm juz pretty happy wif myself for being Myself who is the SAME infront of God and everyone else.
I'm not afraid to face my past, and is able to reminisce every single bit of those moments.
I've not done everything tt's pleasing to God, neither have I done everything tt's according to God's will, of cos...
However, I know tt Those were the PAST, the PAST tt I've left at the feet of Jesus, forgiven and straightened out.
Hence, I'm able to share them, so tt I can tell pple how God had helped made my paths straight!
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To those who hv mentioned tt they r ashamed when they think of their past,
"You Dun hv to if u leave them at the feet of Jesus."
Monday, February 2, 2009
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